Am I mean? (LONG)

Ok...
this past week I was in the hospital for 2 days due to a severe asthma attack. I am on a large dse of prednizone which besides making me sweaty and wired and hungry it makes me very aggitated. Well FH runs a restaurant and is only off on Monday's which is not a day with me, so we have this Monday off and since I am still not compeltely well I wnated to just do something casual and I did not have to go far. I assumed his aprents would wnat to do somethign with us since we are rarely off a whole day together.
I have major FSIL issues she is mean and obnoxious and FH finally does not really bother with her after what seems liek forever of treating me like garbage, he will see her just to visit his nephews and niece but she is rude and nasty and I will not put myself through it. FMIL is a sweet lady but is like her daughters slave since she can not handle her 4 children and one on the way (at 31 years old), well Ia sked FH what they are doing on Memorial day and he said they are waiting on what his sister is doing and I lost it I went nut saying how pathetic it is how they cater to her and everything is determiend by whats he wanst when they know I am sick and should say why don't you guys come over here and w'll have a mini bbq since we are never invited to his b%tch sister's house, and I went nuts screaming and syaing they need to get a life and start putting us on the priority list otherwise when the time comes and we have children they will barely see us since I will not play second fiddle to that shamefule xcuse of a sister of his!

I felt kind of better after I let it out...am I mean ?

I don't think you are mean! I think you probably reached your limit - that's understandable! And it's totally fair to not want to be second fiddle to his sister if she's like that!!!!

Mean, No...Human! We can only take so much for so long. Also, being sick and on a steriod does not make it any eaiser for you!!! Firstly, I hope you feel better, more than anything, you should take it easy this weekend, you don't want to be around lots of fumes and smoke as it can trigger off your asthma anyway...You are not mean, you have just reached your limit, and needed to get how you feel off your chest! and trust me, I would have exploded too That FSIL is a Pain in the you know what! Feel better!!! here are some and

She doesn't make the sacrafice she is selfish and wants to have it at her house bc she know she does not have to include us she has stated out loud that 'She will never be my sister in law.' She has been nasty since day 1bc her brother was no longer at her beck and call bc he was with me and we helped out quite often. I am very sick and for one day someone should accomidate us not her and her camp of kids, I am tired of accomidating we didn't tell her to keep popping out kids she can't control.

Sorry I am brutal haha she is so mean and obnoxious I am ashamed ot have to be related to some of these ppl

Doesn't sound like your feelings should be stifled, but maybe not yell at FH, sounds like everyone deserves it but him! I get very mad at my stepmom because she caters to her loser, alcoholic, not legally allowed to live with or see her own kids w/o supervision daughter! But you cannot change people. It still irritates me when she gives her money or goes running when she calls, but we have talked to her till blue in the face. So now I just don't partake in conversations about her or acknowledge her (she is not allowed in our house[stepmom lives upstairs])Unfortunately, you still have to deal with her, but just do your best to ignore this type of behavior. Call FMIL and tell her if she is not going to make plans, give her your idea of a mini bbq, then tell her you'll make other plans. See if she calls your bluff! Good Luck, so sorry that you have to deal with all of this. Hope you feel better soon