Anyone else?

Now I dont take birth control for my own reasons...
I already have a 1 year old daughter and my wedding was originally put off due to me getting pregnant...
Now we are def going through with it this time...
But I am so paranoid about getting pregnant again before my wedding.. Yes we can use protection, other methods, etc... But since having my daughter I dont have much of a sex drive at all!!! ***** but thats just the way my body is... So we rarely have sex as it is
Anyways... is anyone else paranoid about getting pregnant, Ive been freaking out lately, my period just ended so I know Im not but I think from stressing and being nervous about it Ive been giving myself weird feelings...
I dont have any insurance right now so even though Im thinking strongly about going on BC I dont have the money... Im honestly ready to have no sex until the night of our wedding a year away to make sure nothing could happen LOL... No, I couldnt do that to him but I almost want to!!!
Sorry if its TMI!!!!
Just wondering if anyone else feels this way as well?

My firend is paranoid about that she lives by a motto:

You can't get pregnant giving hand jobs.

I must say that I am more paranoid about getting pregnant now that I am engaged than I was before. It's wierd huh?!?!? I guess I just can't bear the thought of having to give up my gown for a maternity one