Everytime I look at my proofs..

Everytime I look at my proofs I get anxiety. I probably shouldn't, but I thought I would share what I have been going through. My wedding was in August and it the most perfect day for me. Everything was amazing, I didn't have a care in the world. I felt beautiful every time I looked in the mirror and every event of the day went above and beyond my expectations. Needless to say I still rave about the wedding.

At this point all I have in physical form are my wedding proofs (which I see as flawed). Every time I look at them I get severe anxiety, so you would think that would make me put them away. No, instead I stare at them all the time. It stinks because it takes away from how amazing my day was and how great I felt. The reason why I go crazy is because 1. In every picture I see how badly the alterations were done around my waist. I had no clue until I got my proofs that my upper dress was practically falling over my waist 2. I hate how my hair looks in the pictures (It may be the poses of the pics, not my hair style). I think it may be more the poses because the day of I loved my hair. 3. 99% of the portraits of me alone or of me and my husband are posed horribly. The day of I thought the photog. knew my best angle and posed me in it. I was wrong. So, in the end, I know there is nothing I can do, as long as the days events were amazing is all that counts, but I just can't get over my anxiety over my pics. The only thing that makes me feel better is to fantasize about getting my dress realtered, picking a different hairstyle and having a day after shoot with a normal traditional photographer that is recommended on this site.

Thanks for listening girls. Maybe, me admitting this can help someone out.