extremely depressed..

i dont know whats wrong with me.. so i decided to come out and vent to you girls since youre always so helpful when everyone is feeling down..
well i have been soo stressed out and depressed lately. i dont want to do anything anymore.. i wish i could stay in bed all day. i have to force myself to get up and do things with kayla, i have to force myself to get her to school.. i have to really push myself not to call into work and stay inside all day. its bad. i just dont feel well. fh and i have been fighting a lot because of the way ive been feeling.. so thats making me even more stressed out.. i feel like we're gonna break up because of it sometimes. i know a big part of the stress and depression is because the wedding is only 2 1/2 months away and im starting to freak out about every little thing.. but i dont think thats the only thing bothering me.. i just dont know what to do anymore.. i am on zoloft to help with my moods and stuff, but sometimes i will forget a dose and then by the time i remember it i already feel so blah that im just like blah i dont care im not taking it. fh has been trying to do christmas shopping lately and i just dont have the christmas spirit right now.. i dont know why.. is it so horrible that i just cant wait for the honeymoon right now? i want the holidays and the wedding crap to be over already... i am so tired of it all... its making my head spin. sorry this was so long.. i just needed to get this all out. thanks girls.

eta- another thing i thought of thats been making me feel this way is my stupid hours at work.... i had to switch hours with the other girl because of her school schedule and now im not going into work til 2pm and not getting out until 7pm.. so i have no friggin time to do anything during the day anymore.. i have to get up, drag my butt to get kayla up, fed, dressed and take her to school at 12:30 and then come home and get ready for work and thats it. no time for anything in between cuz by the time i get back from taking her to school i have just enough time to take a shower and get dressed, pick up lunch and go. i have to rush out the door now as i type this.

I think we all feel this way at times - the holidays are hard and they are doubley hard for those of us on a wedding budget. Take some solace in the fact that you are not alone.

That being said, Krissy - i think maybe you need to see your doc about this. You may need a change of meds...i'm saying this because i consider you to be a friend and i know you know i'm not saying it to be mean. Pills sometimes run their course & you build up an immunity...

Is there anything I can do to help??

I'm sorry that you are going through this. Can you speak with the doctor who prescribed the Zoloft? Maybe there is a different dosage or a different medication they can switch you to? My sister was going through a similar experience in the months leading up to her wedding and they changed her medication and it really helped a lot.

Everyone always says that the holidays are so exciting and fun but a lot of people get stressed out and depressed around this time. You are definitely not alone! U can always FM me if u need to talk.

OMG I never thought the 08ers would vent everyday and be depressed and have anxiety. It seems closer to the wedding the more everyone is panicing. . I didnt realize that this is a normal thing. But its normal, it will pass. BE STONG!! Sorry to everyone feeling down. Cheer up!!! The holy days are near!!!

I AM Getting to the point where i just want it to come already too. I have things that NEED to be done NOW or should've been done and i am so unmotivated but i have to force myself and need to because having all these things that should've been done already just stresses me out more.

I used to always hear ppl talk like this right before the wedding and i used to think oh no i am not gonna think like that and used to feel bad for them but now i understand completely. I hope once i get these things done it will be better.

Also now looking at places to live and just waiting to figure out our finances and all that, i seriously just want to move in together already.

its like i want it to come already but at the same time im like oh no i have so much left to do i wish i had more time lol so its weird

first for you! second I'll say I don't think I've 'chatted' with you before so please know I mean all of this with best of intentions! though we don't all 'know' each other - i think of you gals as a little mini family and want all brides to 'be well'
it sounds like there are 3 things going on here...
1. holidays - even if its the 'most wonderful time of the year' for someone - it is STILL stressful! I'll tell you - I LOVE christmas and I'm feeling guilty taking time from holiday preparations, money from the shopping etc..because of our wedding. the holidays are about giving so I think it feels wierd focusing on us. that plus no matter how much you luv it its just so darn stressful!

2. wedding - you're getting close and a lot of what your saying sounds very normal...that said

3. your medication - what worries me is the 'I don't feel like getting out of bed' . We ALL have what I call 'Pajama Days' or weekends ;) I'm a big proponent of those...and who doesn't want to call in sick. but if you're really feeling this way all the time, something is probably off. Just like what some of the other girls have said - I think you should speak to your doctor. maybe with all the emotion of the wedding you just need something a bit different?

The first step - as trite as this sounds - is recognizing it. the GREAT thing is that you know what's going on and you KNOW what you need to do to fix it. check in with Doc and be SURE to keep to your schedule for taking your meds!

best of luck and be sure to update us! I want to hear the 'I'm smiling and happy' report as soon as you take care of all this! then you can get on with all the happy stuff going on!

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Posted by Espo22

I AM Getting to the point where i just want it to come already too. I have things that NEED to be done NOW or should've been done and i am so unmotivated but i have to force myself and need to because having all these things that should've been done already just stresses me out more.

I used to always hear ppl talk like this right before the wedding and i used to think oh no i am not gonna think like that and used to feel bad for them but now i understand completely. I hope once i get these things done it will be better.

Also now looking at places to live and just waiting to figure out our finances and all that, i seriously just want to move in together already.

its like i want it to come already but at the same time im like oh no i have so much left to do i wish i had more time lol so its weird

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Wow, Espo took the words right out of my mouth! I am at that point where I should know the colors of my bm dresses and I still dont, and havent picked the dresses and im almost at the 5 month mark. Everytime I get a step closer, something happens and it makes me want to give up!

Im sorry you feel this way! But one thing that usually makes me feel better is . . .wine, no, jk, or am I? Okay, no really, its friends. When Im down, I call my best friend, aka MOH and tell her all my anxieties and she always knows what to say. Take a day to be with a good friend or go to the movies and get your mind off of everything!

Hope that helps! Know you arent alone!

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Posted by LeslieMike

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Posted by Espo22

I AM Getting to the point where i just want it to come already too. I have things that NEED to be done NOW or should've been done and i am so unmotivated but i have to force myself and need to because having all these things that should've been done already just stresses me out more.

I used to always hear ppl talk like this right before the wedding and i used to think oh no i am not gonna think like that and used to feel bad for them but now i understand completely. I hope once i get these things done it will be better.

Also now looking at places to live and just waiting to figure out our finances and all that, i seriously just want to move in together already.

its like i want it to come already but at the same time im like oh no i have so much left to do i wish i had more time lol so its weird

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Wow, Espo took the words right out of my mouth! I am at that point where I should know the colors of my bm dresses and I still dont, and havent picked the dresses and im almost at the 5 month mark. Everytime I get a step closer, something happens and it makes me want to give up!

Im sorry you feel this way! But one thing that usually makes me feel better is . . .wine, no, jk, or am I? Okay, no really, its friends. When Im down, I call my best friend, aka MOH and tell her all my anxieties and she always knows what to say. Take a day to be with a good friend or go to the movies and get your mind off of everything!

Hope that helps! Know you arent alone!

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OMG i am in the same boat, and it makes me feel better that you're a week after me and in the same position lol...ok i will get this done SOON!!!! now you have to also do this lol...I am gonna go crazy if i keep having to worry about the dresses

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Posted by davenjess

I think we all feel this way at times - the holidays are hard and they are doubley hard for those of us on a wedding budget. Take some solace in the fact that you are not alone.

That being said, Krissy - i think maybe you need to see your doc about this. You may need a change of meds...i'm saying this because i consider you to be a friend and i know you know i'm not saying it to be mean. Pills sometimes run their course & you build up an immunity...

Is there anything I can do to help??

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i agree 100% i have felt the same way in the past. i went to a psyciatrist and it helped a bit. I was also on zoloft for a long time. It helped i dont take it anymore ( my own personal decision) but i stil get hose days where i dont wanna get outta bed. I was diagnosed with manic depression when i was 12 it ***** lol but you get get thru it! if u need to talk please call me im here for ya!!

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Posted by Espo22

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Posted by LeslieMike

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Posted by Espo22

I AM Getting to the point where i just want it to come already too. I have things that NEED to be done NOW or should've been done and i am so unmotivated but i have to force myself and need to because having all these things that should've been done already just stresses me out more.

I used to always hear ppl talk like this right before the wedding and i used to think oh no i am not gonna think like that and used to feel bad for them but now i understand completely. I hope once i get these things done it will be better.

Also now looking at places to live and just waiting to figure out our finances and all that, i seriously just want to move in together already.

its like i want it to come already but at the same time im like oh no i have so much left to do i wish i had more time lol so its weird

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Wow, Espo took the words right out of my mouth! I am at that point where I should know the colors of my bm dresses and I still dont, and havent picked the dresses and im almost at the 5 month mark. Everytime I get a step closer, something happens and it makes me want to give up!

Im sorry you feel this way! But one thing that usually makes me feel better is . . .wine, no, jk, or am I? Okay, no really, its friends. When Im down, I call my best friend, aka MOH and tell her all my anxieties and she always knows what to say. Take a day to be with a good friend or go to the movies and get your mind off of everything!

Hope that helps! Know you arent alone!

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OMG i am in the same boat, and it makes me feel better that you're a week after me and in the same position lol...ok i will get this done SOON!!!! now you have to also do this lol...I am gonna go crazy if i keep having to worry about the dresses

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hugs for you may girls!!! hey - don't think either of you are going ANYWHERE after your big day! I'm gonna need MAJOR 5 month meltdown support ! :)

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Posted by colleen1117

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Posted by Espo22

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Posted by LeslieMike

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Posted by Espo22

I AM Getting to the point where i just want it to come already too. I have things that NEED to be done NOW or should've been done and i am so unmotivated but i have to force myself and need to because having all these things that should've been done already just stresses me out more.

I used to always hear ppl talk like this right before the wedding and i used to think oh no i am not gonna think like that and used to feel bad for them but now i understand completely. I hope once i get these things done it will be better.

Also now looking at places to live and just waiting to figure out our finances and all that, i seriously just want to move in together already.

its like i want it to come already but at the same time im like oh no i have so much left to do i wish i had more time lol so its weird

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Wow, Espo took the words right out of my mouth! I am at that point where I should know the colors of my bm dresses and I still dont, and havent picked the dresses and im almost at the 5 month mark. Everytime I get a step closer, something happens and it makes me want to give up!

Im sorry you feel this way! But one thing that usually makes me feel better is . . .wine, no, jk, or am I? Okay, no really, its friends. When Im down, I call my best friend, aka MOH and tell her all my anxieties and she always knows what to say. Take a day to be with a good friend or go to the movies and get your mind off of everything!

Hope that helps! Know you arent alone!

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OMG i am in the same boat, and it makes me feel better that you're a week after me and in the same position lol...ok i will get this done SOON!!!! now you have to also do this lol...I am gonna go crazy if i keep having to worry about the dresses

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hugs for you may girls!!! hey - don't think either of you are going ANYWHERE after your big day! I'm gonna need MAJOR 5 month meltdown support ! :)

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awww thank you

yes we'll be here and help all of you who are at the point we are at now lol.

thanks girls for all your support.. i just made an appt with my doctor for this friday.. so hopefully she can help me with this. on my way to work i stopped and got a starbucks java chip frapp... they always make me feel better... weird. i took the 1st sip and it made me sigh and smile.... i called fh and told him i love him and im so sorry for being such a jerk to him lately... so i am trying to think positive now.. and so far its going okay.. i got to work and my boss had to run out for a bit so i get to come on here yayyyyy... thank you all so so much, really.. and to everyone else who is feeling this way- denise- i didnt get my bm dresses til a couple months ago, so dont stress on that, you will get them in plenty of time!!!

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Posted by iwannabmrsD

i know how u feel.. i hate everything and everyone right now..

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well, we luv ya...

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Posted by o8bride

thanks girls for all your support.. i just made an appt with my doctor for this friday.. so hopefully she can help me with this. on my way to work i stopped and got a starbucks java chip frapp... they always make me feel better... weird. i took the 1st sip and it made me sigh and smile.... i called fh and told him i love him and im so sorry for being such a jerk to him lately... so i am trying to think positive now.. and so far its going okay.. i got to work and my boss had to run out for a bit so i get to come on here yayyyyy... thank you all so so much, really.. and to everyone else who is feeling this way- denise- i didnt get my bm dresses til a couple months ago, so dont stress on that, you will get them in plenty of time!!!

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Thats great! gotta luv starbucks if it makes you smile! :)

i know how you're feeling. the holidays get me down every year, but one would think w/ my wedding 2 months away, i'd be the happiest person in the world, and that's so far from even being close to true. just know that you are not alone, and that eventually, it'll pass.

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Posted by iwannabmrsD

i know how u feel.. i hate everything and everyone right now..

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well, we luv ya...

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lol. same here.. i am soo tired of everything wedding.. i hate that no one will do things when i ask them to do them. i hate that i have to depend on other people to do stuff.. i kicked out a bridesmaid this week... i'im actually having nightmares about it!!!

I'm sorry your feeling this way..I think we all do at times..your planning a wedding, the holidays are right around the corner..and its cold..the winter months usually bring depression ( i know it does for me) definately talk to your doc about everything..it helps to get things in the open..I hope you feel better soon..HUGS!