I am having such a horrible day!

I'm actually sitting in my office crying right now. I had a client this morning that I fought for with opposing counsel and the judge for 2 hours today and if anyone deserved a break, it was this guy, at least compared to the other people that were involved. All I wanted was to get him one more week so that he can move into his new apartment before the sheriff came to evict him. ONE WEEK! No matter what I did, no matter what law I threw out, no matter how many heartstrings I pulled, there was no winning this one. I rarely let my emotions get involved on cases because in my line of work, it's very easy to be overcome with sadness and guilt when you can't help someone, so I learned early on not to take things personally. For some reason, this case just got to me. And when I was talking to my boss about it, she actually told me that I was too fixated on this case when there were other, more compelling cases to worry about! I couldn't believe she said that (she fixates on the littlest details of things and wastes time on making mountains out of molehills on a regular basis, and gets stressed out and emotional far more often than I do), and I snapped at her. I told her I could be fixated on whatever case I felt like.

So I already felt like sh*t and wanted to cry, and these other clients came in who I had spoken with last week and swore up and down, via our interpretor (they don't speak English) that they had no idea they were ever supposed to go to court and were never in court last year at all. I found out last week, when I went to court, looked at the file, and spent my own money making numerous copies, that they had been to court. So today, the interpretor questioned them about it and they just said, 'So what if we did go to court? Does it matter?' They BLATANTLY lied to us serveral times and acted so blase when they were caught. I was stunned. They weren't even embarassed about being caught in a lie. So I wasted several hours and my own money on these people who lied to my face, when I could have been helping someone else who deserved it. It's like no matter what I do, it's a lose-lose situation.

I needed to vent about this and I apologize if anyone actually read through this whole thing, but I rarely feel like this at work and it's just taken too much of a toll on me today, I guess. I just want to curl up on my office floor and sob.