I am so NERVOUS (long vent)
My countdown clock hit 199 today. And even though I have a way to go I am soo nervous. Every time I look up at the clock my stomach drops. I have so much to do and things are just coming sooo fast. I am so nervous. I told FH how nervous I was and he asked me why. He told me he isn't, he can't wait to marry me. He asked me if I was sure I wanted to marry him. I told him of course. I love him to death and I definitly want to marry him. I don't have a doubt in my mind. But I am just so nervous because there are so many changes happening and so many more to come and I am just really nervous. I am not going to be just Jaime anymore. I am going to be Mrs. Jaime with a whole new name, a whole new family, a stepson, children of my own to come, a new home, a new job, leaving my family. Plus I have so much stuff left to do for our wedding. I just feel so much pressure and stress and it is very overwhelming. This is the first time in over a year that we have been engaged that I am feeling all these strange new emotions. I am just so worried and nervous because it is all coming so quickly. Any one else feeling this tremendous pressure? Please tell me it gets easier and life balances out after getting married. I am a worry wart and I am just so worried about everything to come and whether I will make a good wife and mother. I am just so NERVOUS!!!!![]()
