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JLWSJC Posted:

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shake this feeling. I'm so depressed. I hate getting up in the morning, I'm anxious and angry all the time and even though I'm perfectly aware of it, I can't change my outlook. All I do is eat and sleep, I feel disgusting and I just can't even stand myself anymore. I don't know what to do I'm tired of feeling like a piece of garbage and being treated like one too. I'm so stressed it's unbelievable.
Thanks for listening.
LoveyDovey Posted:

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awww Jamie!!!!

I know how you feel, Ive been feeling down lately too!

you gotta shake it off! and do something about how you feel!!!

What would make you feel better? whatever it is, DO IT!!!!!

is it anything in particular or just life itself?



vent away!
FutureMcBride Posted:

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Oh no...

I am so sorry you are feeling this way.... but be sure that you aren't alone!!!! Does this have anything to do with wedding planning? I am not on the site all the time so I don't know you but I feel for you... what's going on that's making you feel like this?
allornil Posted:

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Nooo! You are amazing and we love you!

KellyandFrankie Posted:

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Hey - Ive ben there. sucks. You have to find things that make you happy, do them. people that make you smile, call them... be around them. GO for a run, read a good book. Sometimes you've got to drag your *** out of the gloom.
Im so sorry you are feeling this way.
If you need a friend, i can be one...
JLWSJC Posted:

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It's everything you guys, it's money, it's planning the wedding, paying for the wedding, knowing it's all on Steven right now, it's this stupid job...the fact that I can't find another one, the fact that I'm doing a job that I was doing 10 years ago before I even graduated high school and now I have a professional degree and I'm still in the same place. I hate where I live, I hate where I work, I hate my roommate, it's just everything and nothing at all! I don't know.
All my friends have moved away, they've all graduated and gotten jobs and moved on, and here I am....

I think I need to see someone, but my stupid union rep WILL NOT CALL ME BACK so I don't have health insurance right now....

I can'rt focus, I can't concentrate, I cry a lot.

I'm just so tired.

Neeks Posted:

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Posted by JLWSJC

It's everything you guys, it's money, it's planning the wedding, paying for the wedding, knowing it's all on Steven right now, it's this stupid job...the fact that I can't find another one, the fact that I'm doing a job that I was doing 10 years ago before I even graduated high school and now I have a professional degree and I'm still in the same place. I hate where I live, I hate where I work, I hate my roommate, it's just everything and nothing at all! I don't know.
All my friends have moved away, they've all graduated and gotten jobs and moved on, and here I am....

I think I need to see someone, but my stupid union rep WILL NOT CALL ME BACK so I don't have health insurance right now....

I can'rt focus, I can't concentrate, I cry a lot.

I'm just so tired.






im soooooo sorry you feel this way I know the feeling.. :( i hope things start turning around soon 4 u..You are definitely a great person dont be so hard on yourself
IrishAli Posted:

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I am so so sorry that you are feeling this way.

You KNOW that you are awesome, right?

We are always here for a hug and support. Chin up, it will all work out
JessNicole7EM Posted:

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Jamie - I <3 you... if u ever need to talk.. you can always facebook me/FM me/I'll give you my number and you can call me.

Contact Suffolk County mental health.. they can usually recommend you.

also contact ANY therapy office.. they will either work with your lack of insurance or recommend you to go somewhere that can.

FH was seeing someone for a while every other week - he had no insurance and paid $50 a visit.. considering my insurance co-pay anywhere is $35... 50 without insurance isn't that bad...

I know money is tight but at least try and go for a consultation.

if u want more info, message me.
I have a degree in Psych and Human Services and know a little bit about how to work around the system as far as mental healthcare works.
Ray8183 Posted:

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Things will turn around.
Im getting Married Posted:

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Jamie I think everyone goes through this. I was just off work for 2 days and then heard the mayor is cutting teaching jobs again so I'm pissed that I will probably be at my job another year.

If you want to go out to karoke or for drinks let me know I'm available most nights.

Don't worry it will get better

mybabylovesmoi Posted:

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I've felt this way before and it's horrible

It was money stress and unhappiness at my job and too many things to take care of - Life really SUCKS sometimes

Sleeping all the time is definitely a sign of depression so please look into speaking with someone if it continues.

As for the job, something IS going to come through. I know you must've done everything to get one but please stay proactive so you don't feel even more helpless

Do one good thing for yourself every day. It could be cooking a healthy meal, taking a long walk, or reading a book instead of watching t.v.

And then do one good thing for someone else. Your FH is working hard (he loves you!!!) so pack him a lunch, give him a nice massage, sneak him a sweet letter.

You did something really nice for me the other day by writing that sweet thread. I notebooked it and have read it more than a few times and it really helps put a smile on my face when I need it. Thank you, you don't know how much I needed it!

You are sweet, funny, and beautiful. Please don't forget that

SimHawk8 Posted:

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I'm sorry to hear that Jamie. It is hard when your worried about money and other things. Try to remember this is only temporary and focus on whatever little joys you have in your day until the situation can change. Sometime looking at everything at once is too overwhelming. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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SoonToBeMrsCali Posted:

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cc2011 Posted:

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Be strong Jamie!!! It's hard, but, don't let it bring you down. I have a small plaque on my wall that my friend got me a few yrs ago. The poems called 'don't quit'

Don't you quit!!!

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,

As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than

It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
Whe he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out -

The silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It might be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Hang in there Jamie- it'll get better!
rendel Posted:

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Jamie, I am so sorry you are feeling this way right now. I just want you to know you are an amazing person and I know your big break is coming soon!!!!!!!!
Leia1920 Posted:

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Jamie,
I agree with Jess that you should see someone, if you think you need to see someone then do it! It can't hurt and sometimes it helps to talk to someone not directly involved in every aspect of your life. I can say that i've felt the way you do a few times (as many girls on here have) adn it's hard to dig yourself out. But like other grls said do one nice thing for your self every day!!! AND take a wedding planning break! NO WEDDING till say the New Year You have plenty of time and all that stress with money especially now that the holidays is here is huge.

My FH got like this to when he didn't have a job. I dont know what your degree is in, but he got his master's in public policy adn got out thinking he would get a job right away. In the meantime he worked for his dad landscaping which he has done since he was 12! He HATED it and would apply to job after job. He was out of a career oriented job for a year and a half and didn't even get a call for an interview for a year! He eventually got a great job.
PT is--DONT GIVE UP!
something will come about. And if you hate where you live and your roomate perhaps you could move in with FH? not sure if he lives at home or not, or if you are against doing that prior to marriage but it might be nice to have him around all the time during this trying time.
All of my friends have moved away to and it sucks big time. I've made a few new ones through work but it's not like my girls. I would suggest trying to make new friends, whether its the girls on here or joinging a book club (i'll join wiht you) or taking an exercise class at the gym. It's hard to make new friends as we get older, but you can also weild out the people you want nothing to do with a lot faster.
Things will turn around. Try to do one nice thing every day for yourself. Set your alarm to go off at the same time every day and get up when it goes off. No hitting sleep. Make a good healthy fruit and protein filled breakfast. Go for a walk before it gets to cold. All these things could help you feel better. Also look at FH and think wow its me and you and he's sticking by you through all of this which is awesome and means so much. He loves you Jamie and thats why he's taking it all on right now, through good and bad. He wouldn't do it if he didnt love you.
CantWaitMrsH Posted:

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I saw this and while I dont know you personally all that well I am so sorry to read. I am a therapist so if I can be of any help please let me know. Even someone to chat with without the office space and copay! Drop a line.

Remember ... if you dont take care of you, you cant take care of anyone (or anything) else!

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