I feel SO guilty.....(vent)DELETED, forget it.

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Posted by 121502

why can I not just relax now withtout feeling guilty?

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I don't know...but you better stop...noone is going to feel bad for you

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Posted by BMD'sPeanut

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Posted by 121502

why can I not just relax now withtout feeling guilty?

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I don't know...but you better stop...noone is going to feel bad for you

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I was thinking the same thing as I was ready your post. I would LOVE to fel guilty for being home

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Posted by Jan05Bride

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Posted by BMD'sPeanut

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Posted by 121502

why can I not just relax now withtout feeling guilty?

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I don't know...but you better stop...noone is going to feel bad for you

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I was thinking the same thing as I was ready your post. I would LOVE to fel guilty for being home

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yeah, my heart bleeds for you

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Posted by 121502

Maybe I am overly sensitive right now, but I am deleting this because I don't feel like hear sh!t like, Oh yeah, I wish I had that problem. I don't think you know half the work that goes into being a teacher because if you did, you wouldn't be making fun of what I said. So, yes, again, maybe I am just feeling sensitive, but I was feeling sh!tty, I and now I know better than to even bother with it here.

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I don't see anything here discounting what you do as a teacher nor anyone making fun of your chosen profession - please don't make assumptions that people do not understand how hard you work. Teachers are very important and work very hard ... so do the rest of the people on here who have to work 365 days of the year.
Sorry if you are feeling sensitve or sh!ty or whatever

you're contradicting what you said...or maybe you just weren't clear about what was bothering you...

we obviously took your post to mean that you were feeling guilty about being home, so we responded (in jest) to what you said about that...

trust me...i know feelings of guilt all too well...sorry if you felt like i made a joke of your feelings...

but many of us non-school workers long for time off...(well, i know i do, guess i can't speak for everyone)

cheer up...the summer will be over before you know it!

I'm definitely taking to heart things that should not be taken to heart, so please do not think I am assuming you were putting down my profession or what not. I know you were not. I think I am just feeling like I should be doing more with myself than I am, and so I am feeling guilty. That's all. Trust me, I know how badly other people long for time off. JT, my FH, being one of them. I was more trying to get out what was in my head, I don't think I was really making sense to myself, either. It's like, I feel like I really need down time, yet I'm not comfortable with having time off. I could be making more money or doing something more important than what I am doing right now, which is nothing.
I must have sounded like a real idiot complaining about time off. Sorry

Don't be sorry, I think it's great that you are looking for things too do. Everytime I take a day off I am running full speed ahead all day - I never rest because I don't feel productive. Weekends are the same - get up, run to the 2nd job, visit 1,2,3 or more family/friends, etc, etc ... just go go go-pack it all in.
Just find something that interests you and tries to calm you. Downtime is important whether it is a few days vacation of a whole summer. You mentioned you are working a few hours/days I think - that is plenty.

Now go out - talk a long walk, read a book, browse the store, lunch with a friend ... do something for you so that when you start the 24/7 nonstop school schedule you can look back and be happy you were able to wind down and have a good summer.

Rach- missed the original post-but I know how you feel!

The first 2 weeks I am happy to be off and just decompress (as anyone is when they are on vacation) but after the 2nd week I get ansy. Even now- I work in the summer sporadically. I am doing curriculum writing, new student orientation, teaching classes for other teachers and I will be taking a class plus to video classes. Last summer when I had nothing to do because the wedding was in the middle I was going buggy and was getting depressed being home that much. I completely understand. If you need to vent, I am here.

PS for next year I know that many schools offer summer music clinics, maybe you can apply for those- I know my district does.

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Posted by 121502

It's like, I feel like I really need down time, yet I'm not comfortable with having time off. I could be making more money or doing something more important than what I am doing right now, which is nothing.

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I think know how you feel. I am not a tecaher, but even when I am just sitting on the couch after work because i am exhausted, I feel like I should be much more productive, especially since I know people deal with so much more, kids, 2nds jobs, school, etc. & my one little 9-5 job seems to be too much for me.

I didnt read your original post..doesnt matter..if you felt ******..Im sorry!!! I hope you are feeling better soon!!!

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Posted by 121502

I'm definitely taking to heart things that should not be taken to heart, so please do not think I am assuming you were putting down my profession or what not. I know you were not. I think I am just feeling like I should be doing more with myself than I am, and so I am feeling guilty. That's all. Trust me, I know how badly other people long for time off. JT, my FH, being one of them. I was more trying to get out what was in my head, I don't think I was really making sense to myself, either. It's like, I feel like I really need down time, yet I'm not comfortable with having time off. I could be making more money or doing something more important than what I am doing right now, which is nothing.
I must have sounded like a real idiot complaining about time off. Sorry

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yeah, lighten up, don't be so sensitive, enjoy the summer, you'll wish you had downtime once you start

Thanks everyone.

I think I thrive off of a chaotic schedule sometimes, so when it's gone all of a sudden, then I don't know what to do with myself. I know better for next summer now. I of course will enjoy my summer while I have it now. And hey, if anyone needs anything done, just let me know since we all know now that I'm free

There's a lot you can go that will be meaningful. Go to www.letsgetready.org. I've been volunteering with them. We're an org that empowers college students to help underserved HS students get into college.

Maybe you can join the Young Professionals network, and help to guide some of the students who want to know what it's like to be a teacher!

There are a lot of volunteer opportunities out there that will give you the msot bang for your buck if meaningfulness is bang and time the buck.

That's why I sacrifice everyday and work summer school......of course, i took the easy way out - one class, 5 students, 4 days a week.......and i sit tehre most of the class and make them write.......
I totally understand though - you want the time off, but then you wander around what to do with it once it comes!!!
Just remember how hard you work during the year......
when you have to fill out all of those report cards,
and when you have those concerts that you have to prepare for,
and those parents you have to deal with.....
and then you'll stop feeling quite so guilty!!!!

If you want something to do though, you can come on over and clean for us - I dont' feel like it anymore!!!

Rachel,

I didn't see your original post but I think the jist of it was you felt guilty for having the summer off??

Maybe there's something you can do for the summer (volunteering?) that would be fulfilling but not take up too much of your time so you can still enjoy the summer?

Try not to feel guilty - you deserve the time off