I know I'm never on anymore, but I need hugs UPDATE

UPDATE:

Well, DH's cousin called a little while ago to apologize. He said that it sounded funny in his head but not when it came out. He said he was sorry for upsetting me.

While I appreciate his apology, I sort of feel like the damage is done. The reason why his comment hurt me so much is because it is basically true. I really don't have many friends. I just have the two right now, and really just some aquaintences. Not anyone I hang out with. And I'm almost positive my two friends have their own best friends, and don't consider me their best friend. His comment just reminded me of this, even though I try not to think about it. I know in a few days I'll feel better, and I want to thank everyone that responded to my post. I knew you girls would understand.




Hi girls, I know I'm never on anymore, but I just need to vent and get some hugs. I feel so sad.

I never felt so alone as I did during my wedding planning. With forming the bridal party and inviting people to the wedding and my bridal shower, I felt completely alone. I was forced to count my girl friends, and I don't have many at all. And the ones i have I'm not even that close with. At least I felt that when the wedding was over, I would never have to deal with this again. I could focus on other things and not worry about being friendless. Apparently I was wrong.

At brunch yesterday, I told DH's cousin that we went to my MOH's birthday party the night before in the city. DH's cousin knew her, since he was in the wedding party too. He was like, 'Oh, Kimberly, she's one of your like 3 friends, right?' It just hurt me so much and its not the first time he has made fun of me for not having friends. I ran to the bathroom and cried, and it ruined the brunch for me. I figured I would never have to count my friends again. But apparently other people count them for me and throw it in my face. Now I feel alone again. I just want to forget the fact that I have no friends and I can't. Oh and now Kimberly is one of two friends I have because one of my friends is becoming worse in her anorexia and doesn't even care about herself, let alone me.