i need to vent about something terrible that has happend! =/

so to make a long story short.. i never thought id be the one to have to sit here and type this and talk about this, but yes girls i have been one of those to lose their jobs during this ****** crisis and terrible economy that we are living in today! it really ***** big time and i cant even begin to tell you girls how rough this has been on me! i really havent been dealing with this very well and it just doesnt help knowing i have a wedding to plan and this has to happen to me.. basically what happend was for the last few months things have been really bad at the nursery school that i work at. parents have been pulling their children out of the pre.k classes only because either they have lost their jobs themselves and cant afford to keep them there or simply just cause they are trying to save money and cut back on what they can and i guess taking their 4 year old child out of a private pre school is the easiest way to cut back and save money right now! so due to that my boss has had no choice but to join the pre.k classes into 1 classroom. which means she had to cut back and get rid of some of us and of course i was one of them! i have been working there for 6 years and it just breaks my heart to know i wont be there anymore! see my kiddies anymore, im going to miss them terribly, and the people i worked with! it just ***** so badly cause i didnt like the way my boss did it either. she gave me short notice of this, but is paying me for 2 weeks even though i wont be working anymore! (that is a guess a way of covering for that 2 week notice she didnt give us). it just kills cause i thought shed be able to hold off till june to let us go and just not have us back in september, but obviously i guess things were so bad she had to get rid of 8 of us this week.. yep i was one of the 8! =( i have been having a very hard time dealing with this and all i have been doing is crying about it. i feel so hopeless and depressed about it! with this terrible economy who the hell is going to hire?? i really think i am going to be without a job for a long time and this kills! i have a wedding i am planning and this is the last thing i needed to happen.. not to even mention the nissan murano me and the FH just leased.. LOVELY! ='( thank you girls for letting me vent.. i really needed to talk to you girls about this, as hard as it was for me to type this right now.. i am in tears and cant get over the fact i am one of those going thru this right now!

thank you for letting me vent and reading this long post.. sorry girls, again thanks a ton! dont know what i would do without my girls, friends and family and because of them all i have been trying to keep my head up high and hold on and try to get over this.. but its still very hard to! =/ xoxo!

they say.. when one door closes another one opens and sometimes its better things behind that open door.. i hope this is true, but with how everything is out there, i doubt i will have any luck in this right now! =/ god give me strength to just get thru this time, its all i am asking for.. its been really rough and ive been soo depressed about it that i just wanted to crawl into a ball and into a hole and not see anyone or talk to anyone! =/