I seriously think Im cracking up.....

For those of you ladies who know my life has been nothing but drama you'll understand my temp. insanity. First it was the inlaws, then my bestfriend and MOH, then the church and the hall....Well it's always the kids
Last night I was ready to call it all off!! Actually I did. I told FH that I wanted to put off the wedding until 2007 because I was sooo confused about whether or not we would have enough money for the wedding and having to get married outside the catholic church. One minute Im okay with everything and the next minute Im afraid Im making the wrong choices. I have a serious case of cold feet I can't believe it. OMG!! We even went and applied for a marriage license on Christmas eve to get married before the big day and I freaked out...butterflies, kept asking FH if he thought we should wait, I couldn't even answer the girl right when she was asking us questions. What is wrong with me all of the sudden? Yesterday we got the application for Marriage in the mail for a church that we think might marry us without the anullment(Episcopal)and the anxiety started all over again I literally feel like a cartoon character that is spinning out of control. Okay, just needed to vent that since when I tried talking to my mother I get I don't know what to tell you. Okay I think Im better for the moment.

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Posted by nov04LIbride

Honestly, all the ceremony and reception details are nothing compared to you having kids with this man and deciding to spend the rest of your life with him. What hall, what dress, what limo, none of it will really make a difference in 5 years. Good luck, but I really wouldn't stress about any of these details if I were you.

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That was perfectly put!
It's easy to get caught up in it, but whenever I get stressed, I just remember that this is one day, and if something doesn't turn out 100% perfect, so what! I'm marrying an amazing man and I'm sooooooooo lucky! And the fact that you've got kids with this man is just so wonderful and amazing.
Don't let the stress weigh you down - warm up those feet!

I know you girls are right, I honestly don't know what keeps happening to me
I know that I want to marry him I just start to panic once I finalize something or it comes close to finalizing something. You had to see me writing the check for the hall I guess it's a sense of reality kicking in and Im afraid I cant handle it or I become very overwhelmed. I feel like a silly teenager with too much responsibility and no direction