I want to thank all you 2013 Brides!
Thank you so much for the love and support you've all shown me through the breakup of my engagement. It has made this a tiny bit easier, which any second I'm not crying or freaking out feels like an accomplishment
As most of you know he sorta end things abrutly through facebook (I know, I know) and up until a few minutes ago he and I have never actually had a conversation about it. Since last thursday it's basically been 'Yeah hi I want my stuff back' After finding yet more things of his last night after thinking I had gotten rid of mostly all of it. I sent him a text letting him know I still had some stuff and what would he like me to do with it. The conversation was fine but I had had enough and finally said BTW *** is your deal doing this crap on facebook didn't I deserve a little more than that after 2 and a 1/2 years together. I worded it a bit differently but you ladies get the idea. I thought he'd once again dance around the issue and not have a real conversation with me well we finally had it. Though I don't exactly agree with the way he choose to end it I see now that it doesn't exactly matter how it ended, the result and the pain I'm feeling would still be the same. The past few days he has been so cold and heartless it has been a real shock to my system. I could barely sleep, eat or get out of bed for that matter. This was not the man I was about to marry. Well now that we've finally talked a gone through everything I have some sense of closure. He aplogized for the way it went down and the way hes been acting and refusing to see me. He let me know he is hurting just as bad and seeing me would be too much for him to handle right now, which I also agree. I'd become a basket case if I was to see him soon. I don't even want to go through all the details because it is so exhausting but bottom line we both finally realized that we had given it our best try but we weren't right for each other and it was becomming obvious as the wedding planning was starting. Things weren't falling into place like they should be and I don't know maybe we should have ended it awhile ago. We wished each other the best and said our goodbyes. It hurts more then I could ever have imagined I could hurt, but it was time. As sad as I am that it got this far its better it didn't go futher. But having this goodbye conversation was the most soul crushing thing i have ever gone through. Though it was a conversation that needed to be had.
As most of you know he sorta end things abrutly through facebook (I know, I know) and up until a few minutes ago he and I have never actually had a conversation about it. Since last thursday it's basically been 'Yeah hi I want my stuff back' After finding yet more things of his last night after thinking I had gotten rid of mostly all of it. I sent him a text letting him know I still had some stuff and what would he like me to do with it. The conversation was fine but I had had enough and finally said BTW *** is your deal doing this crap on facebook didn't I deserve a little more than that after 2 and a 1/2 years together. I worded it a bit differently but you ladies get the idea. I thought he'd once again dance around the issue and not have a real conversation with me well we finally had it. Though I don't exactly agree with the way he choose to end it I see now that it doesn't exactly matter how it ended, the result and the pain I'm feeling would still be the same. The past few days he has been so cold and heartless it has been a real shock to my system. I could barely sleep, eat or get out of bed for that matter. This was not the man I was about to marry. Well now that we've finally talked a gone through everything I have some sense of closure. He aplogized for the way it went down and the way hes been acting and refusing to see me. He let me know he is hurting just as bad and seeing me would be too much for him to handle right now, which I also agree. I'd become a basket case if I was to see him soon. I don't even want to go through all the details because it is so exhausting but bottom line we both finally realized that we had given it our best try but we weren't right for each other and it was becomming obvious as the wedding planning was starting. Things weren't falling into place like they should be and I don't know maybe we should have ended it awhile ago. We wished each other the best and said our goodbyes. It hurts more then I could ever have imagined I could hurt, but it was time. As sad as I am that it got this far its better it didn't go futher. But having this goodbye conversation was the most soul crushing thing i have ever gone through. Though it was a conversation that needed to be had.
