I'm trying so hard (Update re:my grandma)

I made it through the funeral and it was really such closure for me. I am feeling much better. Wed was definetely the hardest. I can't believe what a strong woman my mother is. I've really learned so much through her and I want to be like her when I 'grow up', We aren't extremely religious, and I really have learned a lot while sitting shivah these past few days.

I still can't believe my shower is tomorrow. It still feels weird to be celebrating at this time. But, everyone has told me, that its 'simcha' which means happiness or joy. We are told in this time that t is necessary to celebrate. Nothing that will bring you joy is to be cancelled in time of mourning.

Since I know about the shower itself. They want to maintain some element of surprise and the only thing is that I just don't know where it will be. FH is determined to blindfold me. I'm not really thrilled about the idea but its nice in a way how everyone just wants me to be happy.

I must have missed a post somewhere ... so sorry to hear about this! I am not sure who passed away but I just wanted to tell that I am sorry for your loss. It will be hard at the shower tomorrow, but try to have a nice time and remember what you just said - everyone is there for YOU to make you happy - that's a very special thing and easy to forget.

I am so sorry for your loss. I know it will be very hard tomorrow but you will be with your family.

I'm so sorry about your grandmother (I just went and read your other post). I'm in the exact same boat, mine is 93 in a nursing home and she doesn't know me anymore, and she pretty much raised me. The thought of not having her at my wedding (there is no way she would be able to come) makes me tear up.

I was really close with all my grandparents, and it's so hard to lose them. At your shower, it will be hard, but remember your grandmother and just imagine she's there smiling and laughing... because she is there in spirit. That's what I'm going to do and I know it will help me. Try to enjoy your day and remember that she lived a long wonderful life and she'll always be there with you.

Im glad to hear that you are handling this well....it seems you are just like your mom...and strong and poised woman!!

And good for FH....he seems like hes being supportive...he really wants u to be happyl....even if it means blindfolding you for a few minutes.

to you!! I'm sorry for your loss.

and many prayers for you! I hope your shower brings you some much needed happiness during this time. Thank you for keeping us updated

im so sorry to hear about ur grandma... but remember she will want you happy and will be with you forever.

im so sorry for ur loss.

I'm soo sorry about your Grandma

im so sorry to hear about your grandma....

it sounds like you come from a really great family that wants to see you happy try to enjoy your shower the best that you can! and i think the blindfold idea sounds like fun!