Just feelin Sad....

As you girls all know, I am in RI with FH...we ahve absolutely no family here, but we have decent jobs and our rent is decent ($835 for a 2 bedroom apt in a complex, includes heat, hot water and gas)...

Well, I posted earlier this week that my job was a problem, I hate it there and cringe having to go to a place where I can never get my head out of the work that keeps building up...FH is working like a dog...he has some massive credit cards and we want to get them paid up...so some days he is working 16 hours....I see him from about 11:30 PM until we go to sleep in about a half hour....I have a few friends out here from work, but all my old college friends moved away...and my friends from Long Island have all proved to be fake friends, never see or hear from any of the but 1, who is my MOH.....

FH found out yesterday his dad may have cancer..I do not know the details, and he does not either...he just said his dad has had 2 tests, did not come back good....and he has another test on Sept, 16, 3 days after the E-Party they are giving us in NJ,...


Anyways I just wish we could go home to either NJ or Long Island, and AFFORD to live there....its nearly impossible....we miss our families, and are hoping that once we decide to start a family we will be in either NJ or Long Island...

Just feeling down and out today...its gloomy, summer is over before it even began... Dan and I are still as close as the day we started dating 6 years ago...we are evidence that Love can keep you together...we have been through births, deaths, weddings, you name it....and still have that strong Love....we are in RI for now because of our love for each other...and we are saving the money for our FUTURE now instead of just wasting it on the luxuries in life...

Anyways, prayers for my FFIL are being accepted..hoping and praying that everything turns out ok for him...

Thanks for listening....I am off to pick up Fh now from work so wwe can spend the rest of the afernoon just being together, maybe grab a bite to eat and he mentioned lookin at wedding bands!!

Talk to you girls later!!

I really don't have the words to make you feel better, but my thoughts are with you and your FH's family. It's tough to be away from your family when you really want and need to be near them. to you! I hope your FH's father will be OK.

I just want to send to your FI's dad

I'm sorry you are feeling this way Holly. I will keep your father in my thoughts and pray that his illness is not very serious. In the meantime, I'm sending some your way.

You are in my prayers and thoughts. Im sorry u are feeling so down to you.

So sorry to hear you are going through this. He will be in my prayers

i have no words, but here are some hugs

sorry to hear that Holly



if you are considering moving to NJ there are apt complexes I have heard of that go for around the same rent. Central and southern NJ...

thanks you guys!! We just came back from the mall in mass....Dan got a video game (he ALWAYS does!) and I got new boots at a Candies that was going out of business and I fell in love witha ton of clothes at Lane Bryant and cannot beat their sale!! OUr E-Party is in 12 days, and I need a new outfit!! I also need to get FI some Khakis and new brown shoes!! He is so handsome when he gets to dress up!! We also looked at wedding bands, I am in love with a channel set diamond band, total 1/2 kt...very nice....only 399.....and they do layaway too! OK, I am off to check out the other Lane Bryant by my house!! Thanks girls! You are the best!

Holly, nothin' like a little retail therapy I will say an extra prayer for your FFIL...

Just sending you some and prayers for you and your family.

Hi Holly, I just wanted to say that I DEFINITELY know how your feeling when it comes to living away from family. You know my situation, as we've spoken about it a lot. (Not to mention my complaining on here.) And I sympathize. I give you and Dan SOOOOOOOOOOO much credit for being able to stay in RI all this time to plan and save for the future. I lasted just over a year and could not take it anymore. So much so that I left JT up in MA. We are very lucky because we would not be able to live on LI either if it was not for my parents' total generosity and understanding. We are having financial difficulties as well, but we will pull through, as you and Dan will. It will only make you stronger! And as for the friends thing....well, I HEAR YOU ABOUT THAT! I had one, count her, ONE friend in MA that I really felt I could count on, but she lived on the cape, which was just too far to go visit all of the time, so it was almost like I had no friends. And now that I am home, I realize that I don't even really like the friends here anymore. So it really really bites some days. You and I should plan to meet up in North Attleboro or the Taunton Mall one weekend when I am up in MA (heck, I'm there almost EVERY weekend!), because JT works on the weekends, and I only see him at night as well. FM me if you need to talk anymore.
As for your FFIL, he is in my prayers and thoughts. JT's mom was battling throat cancer when we first began dating, and I know what it's like to see JT go through the emotions and what not that go along with cancer. BUT, FMIL pulled through even though it did not look good, so even if the worst case scenario did happen, I'm sure FFIL is strong, and you and Dan will find strength in eachother.