my grandpa--really bad news--smokers please read UPDATED--he's in heaven now

here we go again.

i put my beloved cat abu to sleep last week and just started getting over the hurt.

on the way home from work today i got a frantic call from my aunt telling me to get to the hospital immediately but she wouldn't say why. but i knew.

my grandpa has stage 4 lung cancer and emphysema. he is dying. it may be hours, it may be days, but all i know is it is the most painful thing i've ever gone through. i'm going to work tomorrow but i don't know how i'll make it through. his sister died on thanksgiving, my cat died 2 weeks later and now this.

my grandpa smoked for 40 years. he quit 20 years ago but the damage is done. even with seeing my grandpa the way he is, MY FATHER AND SISTER CONTINUE TO SMOKE!!! and my grandfather even had a big heart to heart with my sister about it and she promised to quit.

here's my public service announcement for the day:

smokers---please quit. if not for yourselves, do it for your family. do it for your kids and grandkids who aren't here yet. please. my grandpa regrets ever lighting up in the first place. those freaking cigarettes are stealing away the most important person in my life. they're just not worth it. watching him suffer over this past year is just awful, and seeing him today was traumatizing. please, please please, try to quit. not for me...for you and your loved ones. they'll thank you for it.

i'm sure i'll be updating this with the really bad news any day now.

ETA: I just got the call that my grandpa just died. he lost his breath and is gone. i don't know what i'm going to do.