ok ladies, here's my story

Ouch, I can so feel for you and am proud of you for resisting the urge to go to that place of pity (although I know it must be so hard). You can't pick your family but remember what your day is really about - you picked a wonderful fiancee who is becoming YOUR HUSBAND. I wish you all the happiness in the world with him. Vent here as much as you like. We all need a forum to get this stuff out so it doesnt overwhelm us....hang in there, kid.

And the 17 are the ones that I am closest to- travel wise. I understand completely that some of them cannot come due to medical prob in their fam..but all 24? And this includes my godmother. And I have heard that my Godfather will prob not come in from Cal either. So, I am trying to be very calm, and not throw a pity party for myself. I won't worry about those POSSIBLE no's until I know it is a "NO" for sure.... and I know the day is about Rob & I myself and the Priest and Rabbi...but..oh well..sigh I just wish..I can't even count on my Bro being there...and my parents are deceased....oh whatever. thanks for allowing me to vent a little...in an understanding environment.