scared alone and I am about 9 mnths away from my date
Feeling scared and alone is one thing and now to be seprated from my fiance is another...
I know I have been distant to this site since I moved in with my Fiance back in August but now Iam here because I am back in NY leaving my home / apt in NJ because of recent events happening at my new job. I am soo upset that now my world has crashed and i am soo scared that i am losing everything that I have started in my life... I am trying to keep my head up doing wedding things such as going to see my dress since it has arrived since sept. and ordering my veil and I got my crown and ordered my invites rsvps and thank yous ... brought my girls to go look at dresses and such got an estimate which was good and all then went to the source mall which was fun got my mind off things...
then everyone went there own way around 6ish and I got sooo down on myself ...
I started crying and my dog is sooo depressed now missing her daddy and all... I just feel like I let down myself and everyone else around me
I don't know where to begin but tonight I am going to NJ to see my boo and then I am going down the that police station to figure out what is going on ... I just know that deep down in my heart where ever he is , is where I truly want to be but... as of right now... I just can't do that to myself worring about everything at night and being alone .... so Now I begin my quest ...
looking for another job here... :(
this makes me sooo sad I had a great job here six months ago that I had been working there for 1 year and 1/2 and left there to begin my life to be back at square one....
pray for me to find the strength within myself to pull threw all of this bs in my life right now ... thanks ladies
sooo sorry for this long post but I needed to get it off my chest..
