spinoff to matron's breakdown - anyone else care to share?

I had a mini one last night - my SIL is preggo and I'm thrilled for her and BIL but I got very sad last night when I saw that DH had gotten her a Mother's day card for the mom-to-be.
It made we wonder when will I get one???

Don't mean to bring anyone down - I just had to get this off my chest....

BD to each and everyone of us...

My most recent breakdown story:

Last night I tested on CD 29 - BFN. I didn't want to tell DH that I tested, I promised I wouldn't until AF was REALLY late (I have wacky cycles).

I was such a b!tch the rest of the day to DH, to the dog, to my sister. Then I realized that I was taking it out on them and got all weepy and told DH I was tired and had to go to bed and cried myself to sleep.

It was a baaaad night. I'm 1 month and 1 day away from my 30th b-day and I really really really wanted to be preggo by then but it looks like it won't happen. I'm trying to stay positive!!

Lately it seems like every month there's been a mini-breakdown when AF comes...

Everyone I feel so sad reading this post.. hugs to all

It seems like I have sad moments a lot lately , they just happen 'whenever.' As I posted the other day, just picking up Mother's Day cards for my Mom and aunts and friends the other day made me feel sad this year

The last true 'meltdown' of sorts that I had can think of is when we were in the Magic Kindgom at Disneyworld last week. We were just taking the train around the park, and a grandma got on board with her granddaughter..the most gorgeous little baby girl I had ever seen (she couldn't have been more than a few months old). I dont know why, but this baby fell in love with my DH and was fixated on him, so much that the grandma gave her to Anthony to hold for a little bit! It was the sweetet thing EVER - she was so small and precious and seeing my husband hold her just got me really choked up for some reason.. He is so wonderful with kids, and really has a knack with them and it just really got to me (I'd just gotten a BFN and AF the day before that, which is why I think it hit me hard)

So strange - normally seeing babies and being around kids just makes me happy. This time, it was just different

I'm so trying to stay positive, but sometimes its just tough Even my DH said once we were home that he felt sad holding that little baby too

On that note, ALL OUR times will come too! BD

All I can say is that I'm so happy we have each other. It's so helpful (in a sad kid of way) to know there are others that are experiencing similar emotions.

BTW, my sister just found out she's PG. This does not make me sad, however, it gives me hope. She has had every possible thing wrong with her and has been trying forEVER to get pg and she finally did. This gives me hope, and I hope it gives all of you hope, as well.

Much , , and dust to all of you!