The WORST day of my LIFE... Long....UPDATED!!!

***UPDATE***

I just wanted to thank ALL of you for your kind words.. It really meant alot to me!!!

Although none of these situations have gotten any better I now have got out of my depressed, don't want to come out of my bedroom mood...

and have filled out the appeal for the unemployment, picked a father-daughter dance song (just in case the butt-head shows), gotten a copy of the stupid FBI criminal check, called the FBI and found out how to get a copy that shows dates and not just says disqualifing offense and even found a guy at the FBI that will expedite this for me... In the mean-time I am going out to look for work, well calling to see who is taking applications so I am not out running around wasting gas, then going to do applications.... I can always fall back on the same thing I did in college be a home health aide... pay isnt great... but it will pay what unemployment did...

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WOW this day was awful!!! First I sleep until 1p, I had a horrible headache..

Then I get up to motivate and check my e-mail.... There is a notice from unemployment that the company that fired me won the appeal and i have to pay back ALL the unemployment I recieved ... Yes I plan to appeal this but now NO INCOME... I have applied at 47 places since 4/16/08. They fired me for Insubordination... I didn't give the nurse a piece of paper quick enough.... BUT they told unemployment I was fired because of my background check... hello my one and ONLY offense was 22 yrs ago and I was 18 the company policy is 7 yrs ....

then I get a phone call that a former patient of mine passed away....get this...May 29th, I have his dog at my house.... I now inherited a German Sheperd.

Then i call to check on the status of my independent provider number they tell me it could be 90 days yet.... Apparently my FBI check has a disqualifing offense on it (same one, when i was 18 yrs old). Now I have to have a review done.... (The original FBI check didn't have the date of the offense on it) a review will show the date.... GOOD GOD all I want to do at this point is go back to work.....

Then I call my patient I have lined up to be an independent provider for and she is like well Jody i really need you to start next week.... GREAT!!! Doing the best I can here....

Then my Dad calls and gives me this BS about he wants me to sign off of my daughter's life insurance policy... no reason given... my daughter is 18 yrs old I took it out when she was born....No Clue what they want to do with it.... all i can think of is cash it out.... who knows... so I tell my Dad H E L L NO!!! Then he goes into this I need to think of him and my family and that there is not many of us left in this world and BLAH BLAH BLAH... So I reminded him how he is a control freak!!!! Then he tells me I need to be more of a daughter to him... HELLO!!! He is the one who backed out fincially from this wedding, refused to walk me down the aisle, says he is not coming to the wedding, is hating FH because he plays video games for god's sake....seriously GROW UP!!! Oh WAIT that is wat he ays FH needs to do among other things like learn to fix things in his own house, Dad has issues because FH just is not 'handy'.

Then Dad tells me 'you're broke, I know it, You know it.... you need to cancel this wedding...' There is goes.... I had a BREAKDOWN!!!! Fh is like it will be ok we will get it paid for, you Dad would do anything to get you to cancel the wedding....

FH is always saying it will get better and somehow it does.... It's just now all of this has come crashing down on me today...... AND THANK YOU Dad for putting the thought in my head to cancel..... I am 80 days from my wedding.... Invites are out... people's travel arraingements made..... A little late to considering cancelling.... But that is ALL that is in my head right now....

Oh MY GOD.... This has been the worst day of my life...

Thanks for letting me ramble here girls.... I needed to just get ALL of this off my chest....