Whats wrong with me today?

Sorry for the vent ladies, but today I am just having a hard time and I dont really know why all of a sudden. Today I told FH that I dont want to wait to the wedding in order to move there with him (he lives in PA), and I want to do it ASAP. Of course he is happy with that, but there are some things that are making me think I should wait. First off, I just started a new job in July (that I am not particulary loving right now), and I am afraid that if I move there I wont make enough to pay for the wedding, or I will have trouble finding a job (because I am not at my job that long, if I leave they will probably give me a bad reference, but I could get a great reference from my old job that I worked for, for 2 years). The financial reason is the main thing that is holding me back right now. I am so heartbroken, I dont know what to do! Thanks for listening ladies!

Re: Whats wrong with me today?

Valerie, perhaps you are just frustrated right now (job being tough, being so far from FH). Perhaps you should stay where you are for the time being and research some jobs close to FH. Do not worry about current employer giving a bad reference, but you should have at least some interviews set up prior to going out there or else you may feel super stressed and pressure due to the wedding.

Perhaps you can take a day or 2 off and head out to FH and check out jobs in person?

What does your FH think?

Re: Whats wrong with me today?

He wants me to come out there, but he also wants me to do what is best for me, if I decided to stay here until the wedding he would be supportive of that too. I can go see him next week, and since I will be off during the week for a few days, I can go hand in some resumes in area hospitals, but I am not planning on moving until most likely January, so it might be a little early for that. (I think a move before the holidays is going to be hard). Thank you for listening to me. You are probably right that the stress is getting to me, it really is, and I feel like I cant take it anymore. You ladies are so great, at least this site has taken a lot of the stress out of planning my wedding!