why am i doing boudoirs

if it sounds like i am about to kill myself~i just thought of that question for myself and figured some of you may ask why i decided to do this if only to be a mess the day of~

well, i was a lot heavier at this time last year and for ummm all the years before that, that i've been with fh...and you know after 8 yrs, you pick up on a lot of times fh finds a star or celeb attractive. i always find solace in the fact that those women have professionals hooking them up...but still it lingers in my head always, does he see a pic of me and have the same reaction as when its eva mendez or that other big bu*t girl thats always in men's magazines (you know who i'm talking about, i am just too nervous to think of her name)...i dunno maybe its foolish, but i get tired of feeling jealous of the way fh looks at their images, so maybe i thought this is my chance...

you can ignore this if you want i am just typing, ranting and sweating...

Dont worry about it! I understand where you're coming from, since I was a lot heavier at one point too. But since you lost a lot of weight this is something that should make you feel sexy. And I'm sure your FH looks at you the way he does the celebs whether or not you get these pictures done. And remember the only ones seeing these are Angelica, you and your FH! Try and relax, breathe and have fun with it

Stop it girl!!! All those Eva Mendes models have bodies and strecth marks just like us. You know that. Half of the time you see them without makeup they look normal like us. All thos mags there in - most of it is photoshoppped. So dont let yourself let THEM upset you over this. FH is marrying you because he loves you and your body and I think he will be blown away when he see pics of you.

If you dont stop freaking out now, you wont be able to smile for your shoot. Have a drink before you go in there.

And stop worrying!! Everything will be fine.

Well I think that every woman is beautiful in their own way(I know that sounds cliche).

I haven't done boudoirs yet, but I think it will make me feel sexy. It sounds like fun too.

So don't be hard on yourself and sharing them with your FH only makes it more exciting and sexy in itself.

the big butt girl is Vida guerra, and trust me i know bc that is Joe's #1 celebrity crush

sweety you are beautiful and he loves you with all his heart. Seeing a beautiful girl in the magazine for them is like Ooo i wanna Bang her, see the woman he loves and is marrying looking amazing pictures is like WOW thats the woman i am going to marry

i know how you feel, imagine how i feel when joe doesn't even like blondes so every girl in magazines or on tv are exotic brunettes lol, some blondes here and there lol. I do get my moments of insecurity as does everyone else. It also doesn't help that Joe has dated some HOTT girls and then ppl make comments like 'oh wow you're with a blonde, i would've never thought you'd go for a blonde, or can't picture you with a blonde' Also doesnt help that most of his friends are in the party scene and just about all the girls they know have drop dead gorgeous bodies and most look like they should be in maxim. Then theres alot with hott bods who walk around naked bc they have busted faces but guys dont even care, they're just a shrimp(bite the head off and keep the rest) they'd still bang.

Point is we all feel like this, unfortunately as girls we always size ourselves up to other girls...its not fair bc you can walk into a club and not even see one REALLY hott guy but you see dozens and dozens of insanely gorgeous girls. Theres always this 'not good enough' mentality girls have...You cant just be cute, pretty or whatever, we have to be perfect and if everything isn't perfect on us we criticize ourselves.

Seeing your pics will make him happier than seeing random girls in mags, seeing your pic will really warm his heart, because behind those eyes he knows the soul of the girl in the pics, and there is nothing more beautiful to him

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Posted by Espo22

the big butt girl is Vida guerra, and trust me i know bc that is Joe's #1 celebrity crush

sweety you are beautiful and he loves you with all his heart. Seeing a beautiful girl in the magazine for them is like Ooo i wanna Bang her, see the woman he loves and is marrying looking amazing pictures is like WOW thats the woman i am going to marry

i know how you feel, imagine how i feel when joe doesn't even like blondes so every girl in magazines or on tv are exotic brunettes lol, some blondes here and there lol. I do get my moments of insecurity as does everyone else. It also doesn't help that Joe has dated some HOTT girls and then ppl make comments like 'oh wow you're with a blonde, i would've never thought you'd go for a blonde, or can't picture you with a blonde' Also doesnt help that most of his friends are in the party scene and just about all the girls they know have drop dead gorgeous bodies and most look like they should be in maxim. Then theres alot with hott bods who walk around naked bc they have busted faces but guys dont even care, they're just a shrimp(bite the head off and keep the rest) they'd still bang.

Point is we all feel like this, unfortunately as girls we always size ourselves up to other girls...its not fair bc you can walk into a club and not even see one REALLY hott guy but you see dozens and dozens of insanely gorgeous girls. Theres always this 'not good enough' mentality girls have...You cant just be cute, pretty or whatever, we have to be perfect and if everything isn't perfect on us we criticize ourselves.

Seeing your pics will make him happier than seeing random girls in mags, seeing your pic will really warm his heart, because behind those eyes he knows the soul of the girl in the pics, and there is nothing more beautiful to him

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I LOVE YOU BABYGIRL, I REALLY WISH YOU AND ANNE WERE HERE WITH ME RIGHT NOW! You really do understand where I am on this one~

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Posted by florezpeeps

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Posted by Espo22

the big butt girl is Vida guerra, and trust me i know bc that is Joe's #1 celebrity crush

sweety you are beautiful and he loves you with all his heart. Seeing a beautiful girl in the magazine for them is like Ooo i wanna Bang her, see the woman he loves and is marrying looking amazing pictures is like WOW thats the woman i am going to marry

i know how you feel, imagine how i feel when joe doesn't even like blondes so every girl in magazines or on tv are exotic brunettes lol, some blondes here and there lol. I do get my moments of insecurity as does everyone else. It also doesn't help that Joe has dated some HOTT girls and then ppl make comments like 'oh wow you're with a blonde, i would've never thought you'd go for a blonde, or can't picture you with a blonde' Also doesnt help that most of his friends are in the party scene and just about all the girls they know have drop dead gorgeous bodies and most look like they should be in maxim. Then theres alot with hott bods who walk around naked bc they have busted faces but guys dont even care, they're just a shrimp(bite the head off and keep the rest) they'd still bang.

Point is we all feel like this, unfortunately as girls we always size ourselves up to other girls...its not fair bc you can walk into a club and not even see one REALLY hott guy but you see dozens and dozens of insanely gorgeous girls. Theres always this 'not good enough' mentality girls have...You cant just be cute, pretty or whatever, we have to be perfect and if everything isn't perfect on us we criticize ourselves.

Seeing your pics will make him happier than seeing random girls in mags, seeing your pic will really warm his heart, because behind those eyes he knows the soul of the girl in the pics, and there is nothing more beautiful to him

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I LOVE YOU BABYGIRL, I REALLY WISH YOU AND ANNE WERE HERE WITH ME RIGHT NOW! You really do understand where I am on this one~

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I honestly wish i could be there, i started writing out a text to you last night to tell you good luck but then i didnt send bc i got afraid of radu seeing it and ruining the surprise...Just go have fun, and show off your sexy self...you know you're one of the few girls i know who goes out and NEVER wears make up, thats something all those girls in mags or in the clubs wish they could do...if they did they'd look like a mess.

Ugh trust me i know how you feel, im constantly comparing myself. I mean you know what im talking about so dont have to tell you what im referring to

oh please...fh loves scarlett johansen (spelling) so i continue to try to recreate are soft makeup look..
doesnt work but i try!!

we aree all the same way and i think thats awesome that you are doin that...

makes me think that after i get back into shape that i should do it!!!!


note: i do not think i look like that chick...but i just think if i recreate makeup i feel similar

Ok i have to go now but i'll leave off with this, for any girls planning on doing boudoirs as their gift for fh, i wish you the best, i hope you are not running around with papertowels under your armpits (like me from sweating like a nervous pig), i hope you are confident (unlike me) and i wish you the very best when your turn comes around

ps~i'll let you guys know how i hold/held up later tonight...

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Posted by florezpeeps

Ok i have to go now but i'll leave off with this, for any girls planning on doing boudoirs as their gift for fh, i wish you the best, i hope you are not running around with papertowels under your armpits (like me from sweating like a nervous pig), i hope you are confident (unlike me) and i wish you the very best when your turn comes around

ps~i'll let you guys know how i hold/held up later tonight...

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GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!

i think that's awesome. when your FH sees those pictures he is going to LOVE them and when you see the look on his face after he sees them, you're going to feel so good...i think it's a great idea, people take pictures to remember...why shouldn't we take pictures of ourselves when we look sexy...don't we want to remember that aspect of our lives too?! i've considered having them taken as well...i think you're going to be so happy that you did...and you're beautiful, they are going to be awesome.

your going to look amazing! those girls in magazines are how shall i say TOUCHED UP, they look fake because of everything being taken off and put on and airbrushed, but you are real and you are gorgeous! your FH is going to looove them! after he sees you he's gonna be like eva what? ... have funn with it!!

Helen,

You are a BEAUTIFUL person, inside and out and losing weight is such an awesome accomplishment. Celebrities are just that. They have personal trainers, personal chefs, personal stylists, personal airbrushers -- It's hard to find someone who is beautiful on the outside and inside, and you my friend, posess all of that. Find your sexy and let it shine!! We all see it here, as does your FH, so let it out today, have fun and know that you are beautiful without all that crap!!

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Posted by Future_Mr_andMrs_Palomino

your going to look amazing! those girls in magazines are how shall i say TOUCHED UP, they look fake because of everything being taken off and put on and airbrushed, but you are real and you are gorgeous! your FH is going to looove them! after he sees you he's gonna be like eva what? ... have funn with it!!

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they are BEYOND touched up, its so true...Heidi klum goes to the salon i go to, and during her first pregnancy she was there when i was getting my hair done and was 4-5 months pregnant...She was getting ready for a photo shoot so i thought oh maybe like a magazine wants to take pics of her being pregnant now or something like demi moore did-UHMMM NOPE, she posed for VS and no they didnt want pics of pregnant heidi in a bikini, so they airbrushed her and you couldn't tell she was pregnant...i saw her in person so i saw how pregnant she looked, if you saw the pics you would've never guessed

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Posted by Espo22

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Posted by Future_Mr_andMrs_Palomino

your going to look amazing! those girls in magazines are how shall i say TOUCHED UP, they look fake because of everything being taken off and put on and airbrushed, but you are real and you are gorgeous! your FH is going to looove them! after he sees you he's gonna be like eva what? ... have funn with it!!

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they are BEYOND touched up, its so true...Heidi klum goes to the salon i go to, and during her first pregnancy she was there when i was getting my hair done and was 4-5 months pregnant...She was getting ready for a photo shoot so i thought oh maybe like a magazine wants to take pics of her being pregnant now or something like demi moore did-UHMMM NOPE, she posed for VS and no they didnt want pics of pregnant heidi in a bikini, so they airbrushed her and you couldn't tell she was pregnant

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ohh i know its siiick! my friends dad works for a magazine, and he would show us all the time the before and after shots, BIG difference! .. like seriously we saw britney spears when she was preggo and she was gross! and then she took those nude preggo shots and she all of a sudden became beautiful and almost skinny!

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Posted by yelley77

Helen,

You are a BEAUTIFUL person, inside and out and losing weight is such an awesome accomplishment. Celebrities are just that. They have personal trainers, personal chefs, personal stylists, personal airbrushers -- It's hard to find someone who is beautiful on the outside and inside, and you my friend, posess all of that. Find your sexy and let it shine!! We all see it here, as does your FH, so let it out today, have fun and know that you are beautiful without all that crap!!

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its so true, you are such an amazing person helen...you're one person i know that nobody hates. You're the one person i know who will walk into a place and within minutes talking non-stop to strangers like she knew them for years, you get along with all walks of life. The first time Joe met you he was like WOW helen has got to be the nicest, friendliest person i know, that girl can walk into a bar and have a conversation with anybody even a bar stool lol. He always says what an amazing girl you are, and thats why he calls you his latin lover

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Posted by MPAS

When are you doing them? You better post them ASAP, I want to see them. Just have fun and dont worry about anything. Who is shooting you??

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i think she said she left...she is doing them today with Angelica glass, which right there you shouldn't worry, you know the pics will come out amazing