wow...tired NWR (or maybe?)

my dreams are getting more intense as the days get closer. I didn't even send the invites out yet, and I had a dream people were calling me with responses and adding 4+ people. i woke up, and then entered another dream that my flowers were BLUE. my doctor gave me an anti hystemine to help sleep at night (non habit forming). I feel like I could have slept another 4 hours this morning. I am mad tired.


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also, I FINALLY spoke with my mother after 2 weeks of not talking. she apologized but simply said she wasn't 'chasing' me. whatever, that part of the convo didn't last long because i told her about my aunt's weird motives.

She told me she thinks I should do favors to give SOMETHING. and she too, knocked my pie idea. FH loves it. and I really think I'm just going to do the donation and eff it all. I don't want some cruddy cheap thing handed out. My aunt wanted to do coasters. my FSIL did that for her wedding. if i was going to do a favor, I do not want to repeat my FSIL's weddings, at the very least. - sorry, thats my prerogative. and yes, i am aware my side of the family didn't attend there wedding, but again, don't want it done.

now, my mother wants FH and my dad to sit down. my mom was really upset with that convo and although she felt FH was wrong for his one comment, she's more mad at my dad for saying he wanted to 'punch him in the face and never see us again'.

ugh, im seriously going to fall on this keyboard.