A bittersweet story...LONG

First off...I havent told anyone other than family this so please those of you who are on my FB please dont post about this....

But I have to tell someone and I trust you ladies..

Ive had problems from the beginning of this pregnancy as you guys know. I had to get my cervix stitched because it was opening before and they were afraid that I would miscarry. The heartbeat was low...and things werent looking good but since then things seemed to be looking good.

Today I had a scheduled sonogram. They estimated I was about 14-16 weeks along and due in november. The appointment was at 2. But when I woke up this morning I was having severe pains so I went into the ER about noon.

These past few weeks Ive been really sick and week...definitly havent felt right. I knew something was wrong but everyone kept telling me it was morning sickness.

They took me in...did a TON of bloodwork, took me back for a sonogram and they had a really hard time. There was something blocking part of the screen. So they decided to do in an intra-uterine ultrasound to get a better view and thats when they discovered the problem.

When I got pregnant 4 months ago...it apparently was a tubular pregnancy. They took a test, it said positive and that was that. Within the next 4 weeks we went on thinking we were pregnant and in the meantime actually got pregnant again. Not knowing this happened...we went for an emergency sonogram because I was bleeding and thats when they stitched me up. That was a month and a half ago. It turns out that the second time around I was pregnant with TWINS

Yea...and somewhere between my last appointment and today, I lost one of them
When I miscarried baby number 1...it didnt actually come out because of my cervix being closed, so we had no idea it was in there till today. It was laying right at the bottom and was releasing toxins into my body for the past few weeks and we never knew it.

I had to have a DNC...it was horrible. They didnt put me out because of the other baby. I didnt know how to feel, and I still dont. Im kind of numb and baffled by all of this.

But they assure me Baby number 2 is doing extrememly well and is progressing just fine. Instead of being 14 weeks pregnant...Im now only 7. Its been a really rough and emotional day. I just wanted to share this with you ladies...I really needed to talk

For anyone who reads this...thanks for listening