A bittersweet story...LONG

First off...I havent told anyone other than family this so please those of you who are on my FB please dont post about this....

But I have to tell someone and I trust you ladies..

Ive had problems from the beginning of this pregnancy as you guys know. I had to get my cervix stitched because it was opening before and they were afraid that I would miscarry. The heartbeat was low...and things werent looking good but since then things seemed to be looking good.

Today I had a scheduled sonogram. They estimated I was about 14-16 weeks along and due in november. The appointment was at 2. But when I woke up this morning I was having severe pains so I went into the ER about noon.

These past few weeks Ive been really sick and week...definitly havent felt right. I knew something was wrong but everyone kept telling me it was morning sickness.

They took me in...did a TON of bloodwork, took me back for a sonogram and they had a really hard time. There was something blocking part of the screen. So they decided to do in an intra-uterine ultrasound to get a better view and thats when they discovered the problem.

When I got pregnant 4 months ago...it apparently was a tubular pregnancy. They took a test, it said positive and that was that. Within the next 4 weeks we went on thinking we were pregnant and in the meantime actually got pregnant again. Not knowing this happened...we went for an emergency sonogram because I was bleeding and thats when they stitched me up. That was a month and a half ago. It turns out that the second time around I was pregnant with TWINS

Yea...and somewhere between my last appointment and today, I lost one of them
When I miscarried baby number 1...it didnt actually come out because of my cervix being closed, so we had no idea it was in there till today. It was laying right at the bottom and was releasing toxins into my body for the past few weeks and we never knew it.

I had to have a DNC...it was horrible. They didnt put me out because of the other baby. I didnt know how to feel, and I still dont. Im kind of numb and baffled by all of this.

But they assure me Baby number 2 is doing extrememly well and is progressing just fine. Instead of being 14 weeks pregnant...Im now only 7. Its been a really rough and emotional day. I just wanted to share this with you ladies...I really needed to talk

For anyone who reads this...thanks for listening

Oh my goodness! First of all, I am so sorry that you had to go through this. I can't imagine how draining and awful it was. Secondly, I am SO glad that both you and baby number 2 are ok. I wish I had some words of wisdom or solace for you but please know that I am here anytime you need to talk. Again, I am so sorry for your loss and I am thinking of you and DH and baby 2 during this difficult time.

I am so so so sorry for your loss..I wish I had reasons why it happens but we don't..I can tell u when we had our mc the only thing that made me feel better was time..not the I'm sorry's..not the don't worry's etc etc..just time

Now in saying all that I'm so glad ur healthy with baby 2 and I wish u nothing but a healthy and happy 9 months and hope you feel better soon

Fm if u ever need to talk

Oh my goodness, I am so sorry you have gone through all this! And I am especially sorry for your loss. I hope that the rest of your pregnancy is problem free. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers

I'm so sorry for your loss. Lots of for healthy baby #2!!!

Im soo sorry you have to go thru this!! i cant even imagine how hard it is!! just try and stay positive and know everything happends for a reason!!!

i pray for the rest of your pregnancy to be a happy and healthy one!!

Wow I can't even imagine what you are going through. I'm so sorry, I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Oh God Amber!!! You poor thing.

I don't even know what to say, other than to offer some

OMG Amber I'm so sorry you're going through this! Praying for you and your DH and that your LO continues to grow and get strong. FM me if you need anything

Thank you girls for your kind thoughts and words

Ill keep everyone updated!

Amber,
I was going to fb message you yesterday because I saw your posts and something didn't seem quite right. I got worried bc I knew you are pregnant.

I'm soo sorry for all this. It's insane how many things can go wrong and the things that do happen.

You are def right in the title of bittersweet. It's so insanely sad that one baby didn't make it but so incredible that the other little fighter in there did make it.

I know it's impossible to not feel saddened and depressed over this, but please please please do your best to not be stressed or overly upset. It's a delicate time and it's important to be as stress free as possible.

I wish you all the best in getting through the rest of this pregnancy and being able to greive your loss. If you need to FM me or FB me or ANYTHING, please please feel free Amber!!

Amber,

Reading your story i know exactly how you feel cause i have been in the same boat. I was also pregnant with twins and lost one 12 weeks pregnant.. It was very hard for me to deal with-

But the reward was that i have a healthy 3 year old boy who is the apple of my eye.... as is my 10 year old...

But every year on Nov 17th i think back of the baby that i could of had...and it saddens me a bit...

It gets easier as time goes by... and when you feel your baby move in that belly..then you will be MUCH better..

Sending you positive thoughts and prayers..

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I can't imagine how hard it must be to lose a baby. Just think what a little miracle baby #2 is going to be though.

I hope you're feeling better and the rest of your pregnancy goes smoothly!!

I am so sorry... I cant imagine what that is like for you...

wow, you have been through alot I am so sorry you have gone through all this!

All good things for you and your baby

it's amazing how doctors can overlook things that are so important!

i'm so sorry you're dealing with this but am so happy that baby #2 is still healthy!