Dropped DH off the other night -- rough couple of days UPDATE

Sunday at 2am I finally dropped off DH at Ranger School. Yesterday didnt go so badly til the evening -- I went to the pool with my friend April, whose DH also went to Ranger School with my DH. At 7:30pm I got a call from her saying her husband was home -- he had gotten cut. My DH was still there, but his ankle injury was causing a lot of pain. I guess I secretly was hoping he'd get sent home too and it was a lot to handle. I was so emotional.

I didnt drive to Florida today because I was thinking he might still get cut (they can be dropped at any point, but most guys get recycled in the first week) and turn up at home. I was wrong and still no sign of him. I'll be leaving tomorrow for Florida because now what I'm hearing is if he does get recycled from this point on they wont send him home...he has to stay there for 3 more weeks (no phone calls or visitation) and then join up with the next class of guys that come along. So, if he gets cut, he'll be gone for more like 3 months instead of the original 2.

I'm pretty upset -- i miss him, i wish i could talk to him (even for just 2 minutes) to find out whats going on, and I guess part of me is jealous that April's husband got to come home to wait out the next 3 weeks, whereas if Chris gets recycled he'll have to stay there.

I'm a wreck today. I did absolutely nothing today but sit around and try to get some info everything. and im just in the worst mood. I feel like I could cry at the drop of a pin.

jenn- we're here for you. You are so strong

I'm so so sorry you are hurting

You are a lot stronger then you realize. Try to focus on the positive and know that this time is not forever.

DH were apart for more then a month recently and we came out of it stronger and happier then before. There were rough days of course but things got better.

Hang in there

Jenn, remember tha we are all here for you when you need us

I know it's hard, but you have to try to be strong for him and yourself. Once you get through this period, you will be so much stronger and if he ever gets deployed, you'll be able to get through it better. we're here for you, so chat away, and let us know how we can distract you!

Remember you have us here to talk to. I know it is hard but before you know it his time will be up and he will be home.

---

Posted by Cpt2007
I know it's hard, but you have to try to be strong for him and yourself. Once you get through this period, you will be so much stronger and if he ever gets deployed, you'll be able to get through it better. we're here for you, so chat away, and let us know how we can distract you!

---

Very well put Elizabeth .

Jenn I hope each day that goes eases the pain of being apart. As a PP stated try to keep yourself busy. Try to do things you know your husband would rather not do (chick flicks, shopping, etc.). Here are some .

hey there.. i'm not a regular poster but i wanted to chime in and say i hope u fee better.. my hubby is away also.. although i can talk to him everyday, i can't see him.. we're relocating and in order to get us settled he moved to PA ahead of me.. he's there now and i won't be there till the end of june.. i can talk to him each night but it's hard for him to come visit because he has to work pretty much very day.. and i can't visit him because i'm 7 months pregnant and can't handle the drive.. he's been gone since sunday and won't be home this weekend.. and thursday is my bday and sun is mother's day..

so i know how much it *****.. try to stay busy.. thats' what i'm doing..

ugh Jenn...I'm so sorry You'll get through it! It may not feel like it now, but you will!

You're a strong person Jenn. Hang in there.

---

Posted by AeroJenn

Thanks ladies. I pretty much broke down completely around 7pm -- like sobbing uncontrollably. Its only the 2nd day and I feel like I should be handling this better. I'm so frustrated not being able to talk to him. And everythign is so uncertain. I dont know whether its going to be 2 months, 3 months, or even longer. I just hope things get better.

---

I can't even begin to imagine how hard this must be for you. We're all here for anytime.

I hope each day gets easier for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jen im so sorry...youre so strong...i hate being apart from my DH too and always count the days he will returm from his work related trips. But this no talking business for the entire time youre bot apart is just ridiculous!

I dont mean to be a downer here and always complain and moap in my posts, but tonight im just a MESS. I've been crying every 20 minutes. My mom is busy packing to meet me in Florida tomorrow, so she cant talk. My friend April is who I normally go to to talk down here, but her husband is home from Ranger School as of yesterday, so I dont want to bother them. I called my best friend from NY and talked to her earlier, but again, I hate to keep calling to vent and cry.

I had 3 panic attacks today -- one major one. I havent gotten one since the last time DH was in the field (he was gone for 10 days back in March). I've been doing SO well controlling them, but now that he's gone again...and for much longer....I feel like i have no control again.

I learned today that its very common for guys to recycle 3,4, even 5 times during Ranger School. Each time they recycle, they have to stay for an extra few weeks. So, its possible for him to be gone for as long as 4 months. I'm totally not prepared for this. I anticipated 2 at the most -- and even that...I feel unprepared for.

And I want to write him letters -- I know a lot of you have suggested doing that...but I know my letter would be depressing and I dont want him to be discouraged because of me.

Ughhhhh...I just feel horrible and nothing is making it better. I wish I could just fastforward through this all!

Thanks for listening girls. And again, I'm sorry if my posts are all depressing and venting, but you've all always been so supportive

Im so sorry !! I dont know what to say b/c I would also be a mess !! You dont have to apologize b/c I feel that most of us here totally understand and are here for you !!

i am so sorry! i now this must be so tough for you!

---

Posted by AeroJenn

I dont mean to be a downer here and always complain and moap in my posts, but tonight im just a MESS. I've been crying every 20 minutes. My mom is busy packing to meet me in Florida tomorrow, so she cant talk. My friend April is who I normally go to to talk down here, but her husband is home from Ranger School as of yesterday, so I dont want to bother them. I called my best friend from NY and talked to her earlier, but again, I hate to keep calling to vent and cry.

I had 3 panic attacks today -- one major one. I havent gotten one since the last time DH was in the field (he was gone for 10 days back in March). I've been doing SO well controlling them, but now that he's gone again...and for much longer....I feel like i have no control again.

I learned today that its very common for guys to recycle 3,4, even 5 times during Ranger School. Each time they recycle, they have to stay for an extra few weeks. So, its possible for him to be gone for as long as 4 months. I'm totally not prepared for this. I anticipated 2 at the most -- and even that...I feel unprepared for.

And I want to write him letters -- I know a lot of you have suggested doing that...but I know my letter would be depressing and I dont want him to be discouraged because of me.

Ughhhhh...I just feel horrible and nothing is making it better. I wish I could just fastforward through this all!

Thanks for listening girls. And again, I'm sorry if my posts are all depressing and venting, but you've all always been so supportive

---

omg, you are going through a very difficult time in your life! you can come on here everyday starting a pity parade if you wanted to! you have every right. if you do decide to write a letter just try to keep it positive. - easier said then done i know...

again, i am so sorry you are going through all this

i'm sorry you are sad!