SO I think Im going to put my head through a wall now... (UPDATED)

b/c it looks like the school district I interviewed for & was told I was moving on to final interview round is filling the position w/ another long term sub who is already in the district...

cmon, seriously? this is SO unfair to get someone's hopes up right before the holidays.

What's worse is that I have been bugging the principal for the past week & 1/2 about not hearing from Central Office & she told me 'dont worry you'll hear from them soon' & 'they're short staffed atm - but you should hear from them very soon' & then today I email her again to be like: 'I havent heard anything yet - is there a number that I can call directly so I can set up an appt - that I am eager to interview & hopefully start the position' - and then she tells me about this other long term sub & how 'there is another sub currently employed long-term by the district who will move to this position.....I just am not sure when that will be.' So I write back to ask her - 'does that mean position is no longer available, or not available for as long as you thought?' to which she tells me 'I am trying to find out what is going on with the position. I hope to have info by tomorrow.' UUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!

I honestly feel SO depressed. I cant get a job ANYWHERE. Even Stop & Shop wont give me an interview after filling out their stupid online in-store application that took me like 2 1/2 friggin hours to do b/c they ask you all these dumb a$$ ?'s about morality and crap.

I just feel like Ive hit my all time low. I know I still have a lot to be thankful for - but the fact that I cant even get a job in a supermarket or in an office somewhere just to have a 'little' (& I mean little) pocket money to help with my bills just totally freakin $uck$. It really takes away from my holiday spirit. I normally am so excited about Christmas & everything that goes along with it, but this year all I can focus on is how $ucky the past few months have been financially, and how I cant seem to get a break. It makes me so sad. There are people out there who are on unemployment, social services, section 8 & are very content to not work and collect the taxpayers hard earned $$. Im just the opposite - I WANT to work - I dont want to be some lazy sap that just sits around, gets fat & collects unemployment.

Im so sorry girls. I didnt even intend to get into this, but once I started writing I got so overwhelmed & just kept writing. Thanks for reading.