A little bummed

I need to vent a little... I feel so lost with wedding stuff lately... my sister (moh) is great, she helps me with anything and is excited to do so but my other BM's are nowhere to be found.. I know they are really busy so I am trying to not let it bother me.. what I am really upset about is my best friend. She passed away 2 years ago (in nov.) and I just miss her so much lately.... I never imagined planning a wedding without her and not having her as one of my BM's and I just really need her around We were best friends from the day she was born...24 years (our moms were best friends growing up too and still are).

I just needed to get this off my chest.. i feel like I talk to FH about this too much so I have been trying to keep it to myself and its making me really sad...I really miss her and I want her opinion and I want her around during all of this.

I feel like I am having mini wedding breakdowns lately. One day i hate my dress, the next day my vendors.. it doesnt stop!

Ok im done.. thanks for reading if you got this far. You ladies are great!