divorce mediator tonight- updated on bottom....

well tonights our first meeting with a mediator- 7:30..go figure im going to miss part of the yankee game!!
all kidding aside,im nervous and upset but not like I was... each day gets a tiny bit better..
my husband is feeling it though. I dontthink the magnitude of this has truly hit him. hes called me three times today...

I honestly don't hate him. i dont talk about him in a bad way or put him down. go figure maturity at 31.. It comes in handy.. I'm upset but i know he has a problem and its not me i cant change him.

like my counselor said.. when you meet girls and girls become your friend. if they dont fit your personality do you try to change them? no you just dont hang out with them or they are not one of your closest friends..

why with guys do many women (not all im not stereotyping) find a guy and try to change them to fit their needs?

she said I should to start looking for someone thats compatible to me and not someone I can try change and mold to fit my needs.

anyway, wish me luck,i am going to need it tonight!!!

it made sense!!!