emotional vent (kind of long apologies in advance)

So i really thought I might never vent on non-wedding things here but just feel like I need to. . so thanks for listening/reading!

so this week has been REALLY crappy for me. . the start was having my uncle pass away but then experienced a financial nightmare where I thought I might lose everything I had (long, long story).. now looks like I might be okay. .but some other members of my family are also being devastated by this. . .and part of it that is so hard is that one of my thoughts was 'OH GOD - I won't be able to pay for my wedding - any of it, and won't be able to expect any help' then feeling SOOOO guilty that that was even a thought when there were/are so many other way worse repercussions from this. . ugh.. I think I am still kind of in shock. . and feel powerless to help anyone. .. .

anyway it's just crappy - this whole economy is crappy and I just feel like it's getting so much worse, and it s*cks to have no control over things. .. . anyway - just needed to vent somewhere!!!!

And I just want to send LOTS AND LOTS of GOOD ENERGY out into all of our lives/worlds b/c dang we sure need a shift!!!!!!!!

Sorry you are going through this!

Sending good vibes your way.

HOney... embrace the good vibes I am sending your way.. and everyones way ...ready.. here they come...

I have to first say that I am so sorry for your loss and for your terrible week

I feel like I just had this convo with one of my BM's... we were discussing how everyone at work/friends/home...we are all in such a rutt and its hard to keep spirits high.

We need to remember that we are the lucky ones who have amazing men that we are about to embark on a new journey with... which is exciting and is something that many people do not have!

Lets keep our spirits up... this is our year!!!