Ever feel like no one cares. . .?

FH tunes out no matter what I say about the wedding....he just acts like he cant be bothered. I'm cutting him some slack because he has been having bad anxiety attacks since his dad and my grandfather passed away. He is terrified that he is going to die and is convinced he's going to suddenly get cancer and die. Seriously, he has had a litle bit of a cough and is convinced its a symptom of cancer. I'm worried about him, but he shuns me when I try to talk to him about it and refuses to go to the doctor because 'they might find something' and says that a psychologist will just tell him he isn't going to die-- when he knows that eventually he will. I've tried to explain that his thoughts are not normal and he needs to talk to someone, but he won't hear of it. Meanwhile, he never mentions the wedding, and I'm on my own with planning. (BTW: I've asked him if he is anxious bout getting married, or the wedding itseld and he tells me to 'cut it out and stop being dumb-- its got nothing to do with the wedding or marrying you'

Then there's my mother...who came dress shopping with me once, then said to let her know when I find something. I took her to see the demetrios, and bought her lunch and she complained that I shouldn't have made her go all the way to Smith Haven Mall if I wasn't POSITIVE that this was my dress.

I took her to see the Bonny, which was 5 minutes away, and we both agreed we didn't like.

I called her the other night to tell her I found THE ONE and she said 'Oh the one for the week you mean.' She was a real downer.

I want her to come see it and help me choose between it and the cheaper Demetrios, but she informed my sister that she's not going to go see it unless I find it closer. There are 3 stores on LI that carry the dress- Commack, Patchogue and Baldwin. I live in Lindenhurst, they are all a bit of a drive. She just doesn't care...she bought 1 of my favors right away and started making my place cards, and thats it, she's done. I was talking to her friends one night when I joined them for dinner about photographers and how I don't want just generic posed photos and she said 'See what I have to deal with? Just wait-- you all have daughters. This is a Bridezilla.'

My sister has come with me to most of the dress appointments, but I have to bribe her saying that I'll buy her dinner.

My friends always have an excuse as to why they can't go here or there with me.

FHs mom works 3 jobs and has only asked about the wedding ONCE. FHs sister always says she'll come with me, but I'm just not close with her yet and I feel awkward.

I'm sorry- I know theres no solution. I'm just feeling down and FH is moody and miserable and my mom's being a b*tch. I just want this to be a fun happy thing, and doing it alone isn't fun or happy.

VENT OVER!