Hugs Please.......I Cancelled My Wedding Last Night.......Reply Added on Page 4

We have been having problems that were affecting our relationship and my feelings about us. I don't feel like getting into too many details right now. The last straw came a couple of weeks ago, I gave him back the ring (not the first time I had done that) and gave my self breathing space for a couple of weeks. During that time, he has been trying to work on the things that have been hurting us, listening to self-help tapes, taking notes on them to start to change some of his behaviors. I totally appreciate it, but right now I am so damaged and hurt from everything that I need time to be myself again. What hurts me the most is that I know he loves me with all he has got and this is really hurting him right now.

Part of me feels relieved and part of me thinks back to the good times and the special ways we had in our relationship which makes this totally s*ck.

Although my wedding was planned for December, at this point the only thing I had booked was the hall. We got a church, but the final paperwork was not sent in to fianlize everything. I guess deep down, in my subconscious I kinda knew. My enthusiasm for planning the wedding was very back and forth. As the day got closer I began to see it as a huge stress more than an excitement because I had taken so long to get on with my planning.

I don't plan on leaving the boards at this point, I'll just see how it goes.