...I really am disturbed....

So, Ive been having this crazy dreams and I KNOW that they have to do with everything going on. But last nights dream was just disgusting, and revolting and I actually went to church this morning at 6 to get it off my chest...

I forgot to mention what happened the day of my epics, because well, it just didnt cross my mind and I forgot about it. The day of my epics as we are taking pictures, my ex boyfriend shows up on the beach.

So theres my mom, talking to this massive man, and it took about two minutes before she said 'Look who is here' I didnt recognize him because hes gained about 100 lbs.

So, there I Was with vinnie and just so happy and honestly, it didnt bother me. His teeth were rotted, and he just looked miserable. I actually felt sorry for the poorguy... I guess cheating eats you up inside, or rahter,makes you eat?

ANyway....i hadnt thought of it since because it jsut didnt phase me, and then last night, I have this dream...

The same situation, but instead I take my snapple bottle and hit him over the head with it. I continue to beat him and drag him into the Ocean....

OH MY LORD i woke up hysterical crying. Ive never had a dream like that..... and it made me sick to my stomach...

why would ihave a dream like that? Could it be i was taking all my all my agression from everything going on on this person in my dream? Ugh my stomach is sick from it....

Yes i think that you have alot going on alot to think about & your dream was your outlet. I think u need to have an outlet for all of your feelings. Wether it be here or talkign to a therapist or maybe even joining a gym & doing kickboxing (not cardio kick real kickboxing). For me when im all stressed or upset i go for a long run. It destresses me & allows me to put things into perspective. Right now you have the reight to feel angry upset & sad for what is going on with your Mother etc. So i think your dream is telling you that you need to letthings out sometimes hitting something ro a good cry can really help! But please NO BLUDGEONING! lol lol

Hope your ok sweetie!

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Posted by VickiR510

Yes i think that you have alot going on alot to think about & your dream was your outlet. I think u need to have an outlet for all of your feelings. Wether it be here or talkign to a therapist or maybe even joining a gym & doing kickboxing (not cardio kick real kickboxing). For me when im all stressed or upset i go for a long run. It destresses me & allows me to put things into perspective. Right now you have the reight to feel angry upset & sad for what is going on with your Mother etc. So i think your dream is telling you that you need to letthings out sometimes hitting something ro a good cry can really help! But please NO BLUDGEONING! lol lol

Hope your ok sweetie!

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I stopped running about three weeks ago. Things have just gotten so hectic so I havnt had the time. Maybe I should go apple picking and throw some rotted apples at a wall?

i dont know. Just cant get the dream out of my head

i have dreams A LOT worse than that

dont let it bother you....a lot of times when i see someone, or talk or think about them i end up dreaming about them.....

ugh, i even have revolting sex dreams of ex's....and when i wake up and im afraid to look next to me and im praying im still in bed with FH and that whatever i just dreamt was just a bad dream....its horrible, i dont know why i would dream something like that, but i actually feel physically ill when i wake up, like eww gross, and eww i cant believe i was actually with that person at one point IRL...ugh, i feel all gross typing it - watch, now ill have another dream tonight!

dont let it bother you too much

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Posted by Future Mulligan

i have dreams A LOT worse than that

dont let it bother you....a lot of times when i see someone, or talk or think about them i end up dreaming about them.....

ugh, i even have revolting sex dreams of ex's....and when i wake up and im afraid to look next to me and im praying im still in bed with FH and that whatever i just dreamt was just a bad dream....its horrible, i dont know why i would dream something like that, but i actually feel physically ill when i wake up, like eww gross, and eww i cant believe i was actually with that person at one point IRL...ugh, i feel all gross typing it - watch, now ill have another dream tonight!

dont let it bother you too much

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aww im sorry girlie...

Im happy to know maybe im not THAT disturbed?

It seems normal, I would'nt worry. Even though you have obv found an amazing FH, there is prob just old hurt and anger that resurfaced on seeing him, and just combined with current anxiety to present in a strange dream. .. doesnt mean ANYTHING about you

I am so sorry this happened. I can't say I have had bad dreams like that BUT I think it is def agression that is bothering you. When you went to Church this morning, did you feel better? Maybe talking to someone about your agressions may be a good option so that way they don't affect you internally. I hope this doesn't happen again. Also, I think it may have to do with you being so angry about the cheating. You said he cheated on you. Did you ever have closure with this guy? Maybe you need that?

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Posted by flairforfashion

I am so sorry this happened. I can't say I have had bad dreams like that BUT I think it is def agression that is bothering you. When you went to Church this morning, did you feel better? Maybe talking to someone about your agressions may be a good option so that way they don't affect you internally. I hope this doesn't happen again. Also, I think it may have to do with you being so angry about the cheating. You said he cheated on you. Did you ever have closure with this guy? Maybe you need that?

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Yeah it was over and done with a while ago. We even started talking online once in a while when a friends father passed away. Thats why i am starting to think (since iw as looking at the pictures before i went to bed) that maybe it was just me being angry and needed to yell and well...hurt someone lol