I'm getting so depressed...

I don't know if everyone remembers my post about my soon to be mil..but here is an update.

She was in the hospital for 10 days because the lung cancer caused her to have a seizure. My FH and I have not seen each other in 2 weeks because he's been with her everyday. He's coming here now for a day- but he's late b/c while he was leaving she got weak and needed him to do some stuff for her. I love her and I'm glad he's being there for her, as am I, but I really miss him so much.....

On top of it, with everything going on he's been working ltitle hours and so have I. We have not done anything for the wedding- neither of us can think about it right now but we have the hall and church booked for 11/10/2007.




I needed to say all of this.....thanks girls for listening

~~Christina

everything will be okay. fh's mom was also sick for a while and it actually started to get really difficult for me b/c he was always with her. i was starting to miss him so much. i know what you mean about missing him. but she SLOWLY got better and i things got back to normal.

hang in there . . .

I feel so selfish I really do. I keep praying to God that he forgives me for being so selfish at a time like this and I pray that he gives me the strength to do the right thing. I promise i've done nothing but help, help and help his family- and i've been so supportive-- and like i said i really am upset too. I do love my fmil.

What I'm having a really hard time with is my fh ignoring the fact that he's been making me feel like ishhh. Come on- no wife wants to always be second best. Alll i've been hearing is 'my mother is the most amazing woman in the world....i wish it was anyone else than her who had cancer.....out of all the people i know she's the last one to deserve this.....'

I know he's upset-- but how am i supposed to not feel bad when he says it.....especially because i know how much he really means it. uhhh so hard..

I know- i'm being selfish and I hate it..i'm sorry! Please girls don't think bad of me. I really have been nothing but supportive. I've taken my fmil for treatments, stayed with her at her house for 2 1/2 weeks and then i drive into Staten Island once a week to see her and I cook for her, clean her up,,,,me and my mom bought her new clothes.....I'm really not that bad of a person! just sensitive-- probably because i'm a bride to be!