it finally hit me.... (confession time)..(somewhat update towards bottom of page)

Original post by libby2595

Oct 03, 2006 04:44 PM

i'm sitting here, counting the seconds until the end of my last work day as a single-woman. i did everything i needed to do to make it easy on my co-workers while i'm gone. so, i have about an hour left.... so far so good.

as i'm sitting here quietly, it hit me. why i am letting things get to me, why i am so dreading my own wedding day, why i want to elope with only 3 days to go................

honestly, from the bottom of my heart, i feel unworthy of being the center of attention. i'm a lot heavier than i should be/than i want to be/than i need to be and that makes me feel like less of a person.

i see all the pics of beautiful sized-0 brides, and i feel that i can never be that. there are some medical reasons why much of this weight is on my body, and my mind knows that. but my heart is broken that i can't be the bride i wish i could be.

i just want to cry.

thanks for reading

glinda_goodwitch Posted: Oct 03, 2006 05:25 PM

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You should never feel bad for your weight. Like everyone else said, your FH loves YOU and only you, and he loves you for being you. Honestly, I think all brides are beautiful because they are glowing with excitement at marrying their love!!

CLMon7906 Posted: Oct 03, 2006 05:37 PM

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OK..as one of those ridiculously thin size 0 brides, let me just tell you that even i have 'fat' days and when i see the angles and catch glimpses of myself in pictures, sometimes i think, OMG...that fat cow is me! [i know----> ] but it's true. even as a skinny minnie as my MIL calls me, i have issues and i see pics of me from the wedding where the dress wasn't sitting 'just right' and i look awkward and chubby in spots.

my point? be happy with who you are and how you look b/c no matter what size, you'll find something wrong...it's human nature thanks to fashion magazines.

yes, i realize that everyone wants to strangle me for being thin and calling myself fat. my point is that as a woman, even the thin girls can think they're fat!

rojerono Posted: Oct 03, 2006 06:06 PM

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Lizbeth... YOU are going to be a fabulous and gorgeous bride. You know why? Because you are a wonderful person and that light radiates out.

Wait until your FH sees you coming down the aisle. He is going to be so proud and so happy that you belong to him.

JeanineP2B Posted: Oct 03, 2006 06:23 PM

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Posted by libby2595

you guys are making me cry.... a good cry.

thank you.

you're all right. john loves ME, not the girl sitting next to me, but ME.

i guess i can't look all that bad

again, thanks ladies.

there are 38 minutes left in my day here at work. then it's off to get a manicure and a pedicure. i think i could use some mindless activity.

you guys are the best

You probably left work already but... enjoy the mani/pedi! Glad you're feeling better

JassyandOscar Posted: Oct 03, 2006 06:57 PM

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Posted by divabride

First and foremost, many to you. Second with all the buzz that's going around you, you might be losing sight of the big picture. Your marrying the man you love. And he loves you just the way you are. I too felt what your feeling, but once you see your groom it all changes. If you think your going to be an unhappy bride, than you will be. But if your willing to let it all go and enjoy the day and enjoy yourself, you'll feel like a million bucks.

You are and will always be beautiful. In a 4 days the most wonderful thing is going to happen..... you will become the wife of a man that loves you for you unconditionally. We are all here for you and i wish you the best!!!!