Kinda wedding related vent

I feel that I have almost no real friends anymore. I feel like I have no one to share this amazing time in my life with and it feels horrible. I am stifling tears right now, and if I wasnt at work I would be crying.
I have 2 bff's, one I talk to all the time so her I still have, she's been great. the other one, which I call a sister and we have matching tattoos feels as if she could care less about my wedding or me for that matter. she never asks anything about my FH, or wedding plans progress, or how my job/life going. the only reason she contacts me and very rarely at that is to complain about her love life. she goes on and on for hours!!! I have no problem to listen and to advice - I love doing that, but I think this should be a 2 way street...
now today I was IMing her complaining about something wedding related, all she kept IMing back was 'dont worry its all gonna be great!' 'ur just stressed' etc. I felt as if she could care less and was trying to get rid of me. pissed me off so much! I ended the conversation abruptly by saying 'there's no talking to u', she hasn't even tried to see what's wrong - didn't write back even!
now I also have a family member that got married recently and I was there for her the whole time, now that its my turn, she only talks to me if I call. she IMs me but that's kinda not the same in my book, call me crazy.
I keep thinking about who will throw me a shower, and come up short. my mom is in another country, obviously she can't throw me one, and I just dont see anybody taking the initiative and surprising me. so I guess no shower for me. it's not the shower it's the consideration I want.
reading thru this I feel as a bridezilla, but I know that these feeling dont come from wanting all attention on me, all I want is to get the same attention and love I give when others have something wonderful happen to them

sorry so long.... just have to get it out and I would usually will never have written this if I wasnt this upset as I am right now