Let the break down begin...

Let the break down begin...

I think it is really starting to hit my that my sister wont be next to me my wedding day. Many of you know she passed away over 2 1/2 years ago. Now it is really hitting me. She was always there... at awards, with boyfriends... she actually opened the mail saying i got a full soccer scholarship. She was more excited than me. Now .. the biggest day of my life she won't be physically present. I feel bad bitching to MOH and my cousins b/c they have been amazzzzing but they aren't my sister. My nephews (my sisters boys will be there) and im sure she will be there in spirit.... but its just killing she won't be their the morning of calming me down, making me smile or doing my hair. this feeling just sucksssss

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I really don't have anything to say except I am so so so so so so sorry. I know you will try to enjoy your day to fullest because that is what she would want for you.

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She will be there with you, every step of the way. Just know how happy she would have been to see you walk down the aisle and remember that throughout your whole day. I can't imagine how hard this time must be for you. I know this isn't close to being the same, but I get very emotional thinking about how my grandma won't be there on the day of to see me as a bride...but I know that deep down she'll see me every step of that day, and she'll be smiling wherever she is. I have a memorial charm that I'm putting on my bouquet of her so she can be the closest thing to me the whole day.

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i'm so sorry! i can't say anything other than that she will be there in spirit.

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i'm sorry. sending hugs, and she will be there with you however she can.

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I'm so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you.

Just know that she's always going to be with you...

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I have tears in my eyes just reading this




Just know how excited she would be on your day, and know that she will definitely be there in spirit

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I so understand you I also lost my sister (just about 20 years ago). I still get upset thinking how she will not be my MOH.

You can definately FM me if you want to talk, vent or anything

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I am so sorry, I am all teared up and can't even imagine how you feel. I really believe that she is with you every day and especially on your wedding day, she will be in the sunshine, in the wind and filling the room with love. Sending love!

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I so sorry...She'll be with you on your big day, and everyday.

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Im so sorry Even tho your sister will not physically be next you she actually will be there.. She will be there every second as Im sure she always is now. I can't even imagine how you feel but just know that she will be there and will always be by your side and in your heart <3<3

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I'm sorry I remember your sister from school and how wonderful she was! I hope you know that she's looking down on you and is there in spirit. Sending good thoughts your way!!!

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i'm sorry that you're feeling this way. but no matter what, you know you're sister is there watching over you and she will be there when you get married

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I'm so sorry and my thoughts are with you. I know it doesn't really help but your sister has been at every appointment, meeting, expo and I promise she will have the best seat in the house when you marry the man of your dreams.

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I know the feeling all too well, this year is 9 years since my mom passed and until recently I wasn't able to even think about getting married without breaking down.
I can't help but to feel like I've been robbed of too many experiences with her already, but this one takes the cake. I know she's always with me and wouldn't miss my wedding for the world....I just wish I could have her back for at least one more day
I am so sorry you're going though this....I'm sending lots of hugs your way

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I can't even imagine how hard this must be! I know she'll be with you on your day. Sending hugs