My first wedding nightmare

I woke up this morning and thought it was so real. It was two days before the wedding and we had not gotten the ring bearer tux or flower girl dress. Then someone reminded me that I had not gone to WM to have my ringbearer practice walking down the aisle (he has autism so I have to practice). Then we realized we had not yet booked the honeymoon! When I woke up I was like I need to get started but then I realized it was just a dream!

I hate wedding dreams.. mine aren't totally wedding related. its more that I am in love with an ex-fling of mine... he used to be my bestfriend and i had a thing for him.. but he wasn't looking for a relationship, he's a year younger then me and this was back in high school... right before I met FH and ran into him and he was interested in a relationship but i had just gotten out of one and he said he couldn't be just friends... i've seen him once since.. and that's because he was delivering pizza to my friends house.
but like I know its just a dream but its always that I'm engaged and I'm trying to tell him but never can and that I want to be with him.. but I'm scared and I don't want to leave FH- like I want BOTH of them....
well last night I finally 'told him' I was engaged, broke up with FH and was with OG (other guy) and told him I had to cancel all my wedding stuff and he said 'but i thought we could get married' and I was excited.. but unhappy.
oh and he worked for a carnival..

meanwhile i've heard that he's actually gay... which is a huge relief because like i miss our FRIENDSHIP and I'd love to reconnect... but noone has heard from him (I actually talked to his twin brother about a month ago and he wouldn't tell me where OG was)

soo.. sorry for the hijack, I just figured I'd share my crazy dreams...

NOTE: I love FH to death, I would not trade him for the world... I just think that OG is an amazing FRIEND.... well he was.

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Posted by megan_gallagher

I hate wedding dreams.. mine aren't totally wedding related. its more that I am in love with an ex-fling of mine... he used to be my bestfriend and i had a thing for him.. but he wasn't looking for a relationship, he's a year younger then me and this was back in high school... right before I met FH and ran into him and he was interested in a relationship but i had just gotten out of one and he said he couldn't be just friends... i've seen him once since.. and that's because he was delivering pizza to my friends house.
but like I know its just a dream but its always that I'm engaged and I'm trying to tell him but never can and that I want to be with him.. but I'm scared and I don't want to leave FH- like I want BOTH of them....
well last night I finally 'told him' I was engaged, broke up with FH and was with OG (other guy) and told him I had to cancel all my wedding stuff and he said 'but i thought we could get married' and I was excited.. but unhappy.
oh and he worked for a carnival..

meanwhile i've heard that he's actually gay... which is a huge relief because like i miss our FRIENDSHIP and I'd love to reconnect... but noone has heard from him (I actually talked to his twin brother about a month ago and he wouldn't tell me where OG was)

soo.. sorry for the hijack, I just figured I'd share my crazy dreams...

NOTE: I love FH to death, I would not trade him for the world... I just think that OG is an amazing FRIEND.... well he was.

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Sorry you had a bad dream too!

eventually you will realize you're going to have them.. mine are just weird because its not like WEDDING.. its like LEAVING my FH for a gay guy

at least yours are mini reminders of stuff that needs to be done.