my soon to be ex husband is calling me and

he is begging for me to give him another chance.. the phone calls started last week, brief ones but this week it has been frequent. Hes basically admitting our problems all had to do with his drinking, he cant take this that life anymore, he misses me and our life we had when it was good. He says he realizes he was a better person with me and that I brought out the goodness in him.
He says he wants to get help and quit drinking and get out of the Long Beach scene thats been his vice all of these years.


WHY DOES HE HAVE TO DO THIS NOW?

I finally have been doing ok. Not crying as much, trying to move on with my life...

Grass is always greener on the other side.

I am in NO WAY getting back with him but it still hurts. He still is my husband and I still love,care and worry about him. He has a problem and he finally is starting to realize that I am one of the few that cares about what happens to him. his friends dont. him mom and sister are both alcoholics and his dad used to verbally abuse him- so he doesnt have family support. I guess i just feel sorry for him.

I know hes a big boy and all of that stuff but I still cant help feeling sad right now.

I think also with the holidays coming, hes really down. I have been also. Its hard around the holidays when you dont have a significant other to share with.

anyway, that is my morning vent!!!