Need to vent
My Mom has been driving me crazy since my Dad passed away (this past June). I kind of expected that to happen so I haven't said anything about it, just let it go. But now that we're really moving on the wedding planning she's driving me insane! I already told her awhile ago that if my brother decides not to walk me down the aisle then I was going to ask my father-in-law. My Dad has 3 brothers and the FI and I weren't crazy about having all 3 of then walk down with me and I'm not any closer to 1 then another and I didn't want to have to pick one so that's why I chose his Dad who I love very much! She's known for awhile that I was going to choose his Dad if my brother said no and she was fine with that - at least that's what she said. Recently she hit me with 'I really don't think that you should have his Dad do it but one of your Uncles. I think that they will be offended if you don't chose from them.' Okay and the other 2 won't be offended if I choose 1 of them? I was trying to make it easier on myself since this is my wedding day and I'll need to make it down the aisle without falling completely apart. I feel very comfortable with his Dad so I know that I'll be okay. My brother has until after the New Year to make his decision but we've been fighting about this and I don't want her to make him feel like he has to walk me down now so I don't get my own way. I feel so guilty saying it but I've been doing everything that I can to make things easier for her and I just need my day for things to be easier for me. I really think that my wedding day is going to be the hardest day that I'm going to have to deal with not having my Dad there since he passed and I really don't think that it's too much to ask for one day out of every other. Do you? Sorry so long but it's all really bothering me and maybe I am just being selfish about this. I don't know anymore. Ugh.
