Officially DEVASTATED! <long vent>

Original post by bridezilla2b

Aug 09, 2009 11:25 PM

ok ..

so when we started planning FH and I agree's to 4 bm'ds

well wedding is 7 months away and FH confided in me that he really wants a large wp ... well, I have lived in many places and really don't have that many friends here ... as it is my bm's are coming from CT, CO and NC ...

had a dream last night that I secretly hired more girls to be my bm's ....

so ... **sigh** just have to deal, or ask people that I know can't afford it, I wish I coud just pay everyones way .. BUT GOSH!!

hmmm ... AHHHH!!!

(ETA) repeated to be clear

he has like 10 people he wants .. I have 3 ... his sister even dropped out because she is 'scared:

I just don't have people to even ask . He went to sachem and has ALOT of close friends ... I went to boarding school and lost touch with all my friends ..

I am just REALLY embarrassed and sad to not have enough girls to put in my wedding party

FutureMrs.M Posted: Aug 11, 2009 05:02 PM

Re: Officially DEVASTATED! <long vent>

Posted by bridezilla2b

I just feel like a friendless shrew ... I know it shouldn't matter and he has made ZERO demands ...

just finding out that he wants a large wp and I can't make that happen ..

there is a lot going on in my head and heart ... having the dream of HIRING people just made me feel more inadequate!

I will be fine, me and FH will always be fine ..... its just the knowing, and the lack of possibilities that makes me sad ...

i only have 2 friends (well 3 if you include my brothers gf) in my bp...and I dont care!!!! I am super close with those friends and wouldnt trade them for the world or a zillion other friends. FH was a little upset that it wasnt even and I said I wasnt asking a so-so friend that I may not be speaking with 5 years from now. Im sure the people you have mean TONS!!! to you and that is all that matters.