Please tell me this year is going to get better...UPDATE & THANKS

I know I've been doing a whole lot of complaining around here lately, but it just seems like there's something else every week. My father had cancer, and subsequently, surgery to remove it; the day he finally went back to work, he wound up in the hospital with heart problems. Now, FH is seriously ill and it could completely change his quality of life drastically. He spent most of his childhood sick and in and out of hospitals and was finally free of the worst of it for about 9 years now, and suddenly, it's all come back with a vengeance. I feel so helpless because there's not a damn thing I can do to make him feel better and to fix this. I can't even support us if something happens and he can't work.

I know there are people in far worse situations all over the world, but I really wish, if there's a higher being, he/she would cut me some slack. Am I paying for being lucky enough to afford this wedding when people can't afford to eat or put a roof over their head? I know I'm not the nicest, most selfless person out there, but I also know that I am a good person and think that I do my small part to make the world a slightly better place. And it's not like I haven't suffered and struggled throughout my own life, far more than most of the people I know, so I feel like I've more than paid my dues (although are we ever really finished paying our dues in life?).

I guess when it rains it pours. I just wish it would rain over someone else for a little while.

Thanks for putting up with yet another one of my 'woe is me' posts.