Pre Cana Night #4

Okay so I don't know if you guys actually care about all this but I started to post about every night so I figured I would continue.

First half: we discussed decision making in our marriage and how we should talk about things BEFORE we get married. Interesting stuff. They gave us some stuff to talk about IN PRIVATE never in front of the class. And it was all stuff that we had talked about before but it was nice to know we were still on the same page.
Questions like:
What if I get pregnant before we are ready?
What if we CAN'T get pregnant?
What if we have a handicapped child?
etc.
This was important for me because if GOD FORBID anything happens to my sister - I will become hte legal guardian for my nephew who is autistic. Actually after Anthony proposed I asked two questions: 'Did you ask my dad first' and 'I am the legal guardian for Carlton if anything should happen'.

Okay so that was fine.
Second half: This is the part I have been dreading. We really haven't spoken about religion in all these classes. But they really went off on birth control. Basically, most birth control is considered abortive ( besides barrier methods) and ALL bc is against the church. Which is fine and I knew that. But then it was like BC causes all these things and may make you infertile ( what are the chances!) and it is a sin!

Then we discovered it is a sin to even actively try NOT to get pregnant. We arent even supposed to wait until a time when we think that we would be able to provide for baby!

And the only option? Taking my temperature and checking my mucous levels and putting it on a calendar for the rest of my life!!!

So I know this is the view of the church - but it just upset me. I mean, we can't have children right away - it just wouldnt be fair to them! I know we are making the right decision but I still cried last night because I feel so guilty about it.

Well, hopefully next week is better - Overall, I still like precana - and our couple is AWESOME they just have to tell us about the church's views and I get that.