sad... need hugs and prayers for MIL.. long vent

2003OCT10 Posted: Oct 09, 2004 08:40 PM

sad... need hugs and prayers for MIL.. long vent

Two very long years my MIL has put up a Mighty fight against Cancer.

One year ago this weekend she was still battling, but danced like she was seventeen at our wedding. Sadly enough, last night she was admitted to St. Catherines of Siena (the hospice center inside) for what the Dr.'s and nurses are calling 'her last couple of days'.

My DH is strong, and doing very well with this all. His mother raised him and his brothers in a very christian household.... And he knows that she's 'going home to Jesus'.

I love my MIL like a mother... We have a very close relationship, and I am NOT handling this well at all. The way I was raised is to be strong for my DH, and be his support... and I feel like I am doing a $h!tty job, because all I am doing is crying like a 3 year old who lost his blankey....

I know she will be 'in a better place' and 'won't be suffering any longer' but it is so hard, watching this very vibrant woman leave before my very eyes. The toughest part is last night, before the ambulette picked her up, I took alex there to say his 'goodbye'--- It was so sad.

I held him and told him to give grandma a kiss and tell her he loves her very much and he kissed my MIL and gave her a big hug. And then she asked for another one. I almost lost it.. I had to leave immediately with him, and just sank to my knees at her driveway sobbing and holding Alex....

I have gone through many losses throughout my life, and just started to have faith in a 'god' again. And now I am back at square one, so f-ing pissed off... at god, at life, at this whole friggen situation... I wish I could just pull it together already.. and I just really need some hugs.....

Thanks in advance.......

Jola Posted: Oct 09, 2004 08:42 PM

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halloweenbride04 Posted: Oct 09, 2004 08:49 PM

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I am SO sorry for what you are going through.

Lisa Rose Posted: Oct 09, 2004 08:52 PM

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Lauren...I am so sorry that your family is going through this hard time right now. You and your family are in my prayers.

MrsTC Posted: Oct 09, 2004 08:55 PM

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so sorry to hear this

mishandgerard Posted: Oct 09, 2004 09:17 PM

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You and your family will be in my thoughts...

Mish

Happybride2005 Posted: Oct 09, 2004 10:53 PM

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I just went throuh this with FH grandmother. Its the hardest thing to do. The first time I saw her I lost it. I'm suppose to comfort him, he was comforting me. FM if you need to

Boop2704 Posted: Oct 09, 2004 11:20 PM

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lvdolphins Posted: Oct 09, 2004 11:26 PM

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Posted by Boop2704

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I;m so sorry you are going through all this.

Marcela1654 Posted: Oct 09, 2004 11:38 PM

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Oh, this is so terrible You, your family and MIL will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Moehick Posted: Oct 09, 2004 11:45 PM

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You and your family are in my prayers

GoingNutty Posted: Oct 10, 2004 12:03 AM

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allure Posted: Oct 10, 2004 12:38 AM

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Wishing you all peace

DebsNY Posted: Oct 10, 2004 01:37 AM

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HearzBellz Posted: Oct 10, 2004 01:41 AM

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sassy2611 Posted: Oct 10, 2004 01:57 AM

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Hey pumpkin, I know the next few days are going to be rocky ones but remember you are not going through it alone. I feel your pain just from a different angle. I love my aunt soooooooo dearly and this kills me inside as well. I am always here no matter what the problem or time of day. I hope you know that. Over the last four years you and I have become so close, you have become an active and loved part of my family. I know you are a cousin to me by way of the family tree but know I love you like a sister. You have been there to hold my head us time and time and tome again and I thank you for that from the bottom of my heart. No matter what happened you were always there, when I went through almost loosing Amy, Jesse's surgery, loosing popo and so on. Know that I am here to return the favor. There is always a flowered wine glass with your name on it and a friend to talk to on 80 palm rd. I love you sweetheart, try to enjoy your anniversary. Call me if you need me. Love Sassy.