UPDATE on my situation with FH yesterday....

So we spoke all day over gchat and then when I got home he took me into the bedroom so we could talk without being distracted by TV etc. He was just a mess, overall he was embarrassed that he used to be like that but moreso I could tell he was sooo completely torn up that I had to see stuff like that, that he assures me he totally does not and did not think or mean, and that he was stupid and scared back then and he was afraid of how much I meant to him so he acted out in stupid ways. He never cheated on me and he also insists that he is a completely different person now because of me. It was all very sweet and a bit heartbreaking - he cried and he told me he doesn't know what he would ever do without me or if I left him. ANYWAYS we lay talking for hours and most of you who commented were right....its not going to disappear from my mind completely but I think we are stronger now and I really know him and know his heart and believe everything he said. He asked me over and over if I had any more questions or wanted to know any more and was an open book.

So I definitely feel much better and thank you all SO much for your support and advice and comments

This board truly is more than just a 'wedding board', its a community of amazing people who support each other through anything!!

Glad it went well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm glad to hear you both are feeling better.

aw I missed the story of what happened but just caught up.
very glad things worked out.

that is awesome to hear. I love hearing good news.

I am so glad that everything worked out. I believe that things happen for a reason: this sitaution has made your bond even stronger (because FH, IMO, handled the situation so well). While you won't easily forget it, you got to see FH's dedication to you and your relationship. So now you can move forward and live happily ever after!!!

so happy to hear that it went well