We just got back from a showcase at our RH....it's the first time I've been there for more than a few minutes since my dad passed. I've to a huge pit in my stomach. I hate it there.....I booked it and knew my dad would love it. All the wood and fireplaces were right up his ally....seeing it now, I can't even stand to be in there for more than a few minutes. I felt a million emotions there...sick, anxious, sad, upset, mad, frustrated....Now I just feel sick.....I don't even want this wedding to happen anymore, at least not there or on that date....
Sometimes I'm happy it was all planned and my dad knew everything, but others (like now) all I associate with the wedding is my dad and how he won't be there.....
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you poor thing!! i am sorry you are feeling this way. But if you switch you might be more upset down the line. as much as it hurts because it makes you think of your dad, it might make you feel better the day of because its what he likes.
I HTH
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I know it's hard but knowing that your dad would have loved it, should be a nice feeling and you know he will be with you on that day and in that place , just stay strong
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i kinda agree with Gina...I'm so sorry that it makes you so emotional to be there but later on your wedding day you may like that its there since it reminds you alot of him kinda makes you feel like hes right there with you and know he would have LOVED everything about it! thats my opinion but i cant imagine how you feel! i HTH Do what makes you the most comfy!
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thank girls...
it's weird....I thought it would be comforting too...it's actually like an entire place full of reminders....I was there for 4 hours and it felt like a 4 hr. panic attack....
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Colleen, I can't even begin to imagine the way you feel, however, it might bring a bit a serenity to your day knowing that your dad loved the place and that no matter what, he will be there in spirit... not only on your wedding day, but by you side everyday for the rest of your life. Look at the fireplace and the wood and see it as him BEING THERE on your day.
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I'm so sorry...thats got to be a tough situation..i don't know what i can say to possibly make you feel better..but know we are all here for you...my condolences...
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oh sorry to hear that... Try and turn it around and thin of it as I picked this for my Dad...He's memories should be happy and Your day too... He is watching over you and would not want you to be upset...
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Posted by futuremrsmultari
thank girls...
it's weird....I thought it would be comforting too...it's actually like an entire place full of reminders....I was there for 4 hours and it felt like a 4 hr. panic attack....
if it was that bad maybe you should think about a new place?
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Oh colleen
My heart broke reading your post.
Its upsetting now....but your dad would be more upset if you changed everything on his behalf, dontcha think?
Whenever I get down about this stuff, that's what I think about.
FM me if you wanna chat.
AS
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Awwwww you are going to make me cry. Did you feel sick thinking about your dad and the place together or you just dont like it anymore?????
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Oh Man, Col...I don't even know what to say...There really isn't anything. I lost my Mom 2 years ago...and sometimes its as fresh as yesterday. Unfortunately, its just one of those things you handle as you go. You need to do what ever you need to do.
Good luck! We're here for you if you just need to get it out.
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oh no, I am so sorry
Have you talked to FH about it? I can't even imagine what you must be going through but I can't help but feel that you are going to be thinking of him no matter WHERE you get married you know? I know that sounds obvious but I mean if you DO change it you are going to think that you only changed it bc of your dad. . .
I hope you find peace with whatever decision that you make
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So sorry you are feeling this way sweetie. Just remember that you love your fh and want to marry him and I am sure that is all your dad ever wanted for you
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I am sorry for your loss and how you are feeling--but just know that your dad would love the place and will be with you that day
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i can't even begin to know what you are going through, i just wanted to say i'm sorry and to offer as many hugs as i can. you have my number right? if not i'll give it to you. if you ever need to talk or want to go out or whatever, i'm here to listen.
if you want to go rob a bank, i'll help with that too.
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I read this post and at first avoided it because I had no idea what i could say to make it better...but if you ever need to talk or cry...msg me.
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Posted by yelley77
Colleen, I can't even begin to imagine the way you feel, however, it might bring a bit a serenity to your day knowing that your dad loved the place and that no matter what, he will be there in spirit... not only on your wedding day, but by you side everyday for the rest of your life. Look at the fireplace and the wood and see it as him BEING THERE on your day.
I agree. I know Colleen I cannot even begin to feel how you are feeling. But you might be happier the day of knowing your dad loved this place and thought it would be perfect for your wedding. So on your wedding day you will feel as your father is there right besides you!!!
But I am sorry you are feeling this way now. I don't even know hte right words to try to make you feel better. All I can say is we are here for you to vent and hopefully we can try to make you feel better. I know I am not in your situation but I am thinking about you and want you to know even thought we only met a couple times i see you as such a strong amazing person adn I know you will get through this emotional time and your dad will be there with you on your special day!!! and i am sure he wouldnt want you to be upset on your day so cheer up sweetheart you are getting married in 3 months!!!!!!!!
