Vent.......That wasn't even the first thing that has happend since we got engaged(ADDED MORE)****UPDATE****

I do not know if I am wrong to feel this way or if I should say something to my cousin or what but I needed to vent to someone. My cousin just got engaged on Friday which I am very happy for her but she is trying to have her wedding in 2008. I am very upset about this cause my FH and I are having our wedding Jan 2 2009. She knew this way before she got engaged now I am afraid she is going to have her wedding before mine and my out of town family will go to hers and not mine. We all had bets that this was going to happen and it has. I just never thought my fear would come true. She has been obsessed with weddings since she was a little girl she has scared a lot of men away because of this. Even before I got engaged we were at family event and she was going on and on about how her boyfriend better propose to her that night cause they were going to the city and she got her nails done. Then she was going on and on about how she has her wedding all planned out and what is going to happen. My fh wanted to say to her your cousin is getting engaged before you. He was getting fed up with her carrying on about a wedding that she wants mean while she wasn't even engaged yet. My family and I knew that she would try to rush to the alter before me if she did get engaged. I am very upset about this and I did not know if I am wrong for feeling upset or if I have a right to be. She doesn't even have money to get married and she is trying to get her wedding date for Oct 2008. It kills me to know she would do this to my fh and I when she knows our date is Jan 2, 2009. She also knows it is hard for some relatives to get off for two events that are so close to each other. Everyone knows my date and that we set it months ago. I am now thinking about sending out my save the dates so everyone knows my date is set. I am so worried I am going to be the one that gets hurt and my day is going to be wrecked cause my family can not be there cause they went to her wedding. I never can be happy or enjoy things with out something happening. I have the worse luck and I guess I always will.

That wasn't even the first thing that went wrong since I have been engaged. A lot of my family never showed up for my engagement party. Either they had other plans or they couldn't come to NY again after being her two weeks before cause someone passed away in my family. I was very hurt. Then after that I found out one of my other cousins threw a fit cause I got engaged the day before Thanksgiving and her engagement party was the day after Thanksgiving. So my Aunt, Uncle and cousin got very upset with my fhand I and made us feel very unwanted at the engagement party were we left. They christmas came and they decided to wreck my families christmas cause they were still upset that I got engaged. They told my father that my Mom and him should have told my fh not to propose and wait mean while he had been planning this for months. I feel like it is not meant to be with me getting married. I feel like I can't be happy cause my family has to wreck things for me. I feel like this is unfair and I am stressed about things. I am very hurt and upset.

*****UPDATE AT BOTTOM*****