Well ladies..FH and I have done some serious talking..

After doing a lot of thinking and soul searching I realized that this wedding is turning into this thing that I never envisioned for myself. I wanted small and intimate on a beach with just our families and close friends but instead it turned into this 250 person monster. I'm not happy and my parents have given me a lot of problems and stress and grief because of this wedding. They've said a lot of things to me that are valid and make sense and it made me re-think my priorities and what i really wanted for myself, and I realized that this big wedding was never what I wanted. I was only doing it to please FH's parents (both their daughters never got married and probably never will) and everyone who kept asking us when we were having a wedding.

So finally I took FH aside and told him everything I just wrote and he understood and agreed with me. He only wanted a traditional wedding because that was the only kind of wedding he's ever been exposed too, but once he knew how I was really feeling he and I came to an agreement, we'd try to get our deposits back and if we could...we'd plan to have our wedding at Sandal's. If we can't get our deposits back well..we'd keep the wedding and everything exactly the same but cut down the guest list significantly.

I just wanted to let you ladies, my friends, know what's been going on and let you know why I haven't really responded as much to posts and what not. And I wanted to thank you all for your undying support and encouragement.

If anyone wants to book Fox Hollow for Feb. 9th, 2007 let me know! Maybe we can go there together and work something out with the people there so that way I can get my deposit back.

Also if anyone wants to use my vendors: Flower Michele, Royalty, Twelfth Night Photography, Wild Rose Videography, High Voltage. Also let me know, maybe, if I have difficulty getting my deposits back and you're interested in booking them they'll be willing to refund knowing you'll take the date.


Thanks everyone for listening while I vented.