What is wrong with me?

Rachel- i think that is so awesome that he would even consider hyphenating his name too so that you would be happy too. i feel like that's one of those moments during this whole process that reminds you how amazing FH is, and why you're marrying him!
What you were saying about independance though- i think you're showing alot of independance just by discussing these different options- you're not just changing it because youre 'supposed to' but youre considering all the options to decide which one will make you the happiest.

I'm in the exact same boat as you!! I'm the last one in my family with my last name (it was my mom's maiden name) she was a single mom when she had me, but got married in '89. she still hyphenates her name sometimes, but not as much as she used to. Also, i hate FH's last name. i feel bad for saying that, but he knows how i feel about it if i liked his LN more, i probably wouldnt care so much about changing it... but like when people ask me what it is... i Mumble it!!! if he took my last (which i've actually attempted to bring up- shot down automatically).. he would have a famous name. who wouldnt want a famous name?!?!

ok, i'm rambling.... but i'm glad you're feeling better today about it! the right anwer will come to you, and it will all fall into place
oh, and BTW... there's NOTHING wrong w/ you for feeling like this!!!!

Prncessrachel~ I am having the same problem. Its just my sister and I, no brothers. My sister got maried 2 years ago and now its just me with our last name. I do have a cousin with our last name and I dont think he is having kids so that makes it hard for me too. I cried everynight for a week straight. Everyone goes through this. My problem was not only changing my last night but also moving out of my house. I asked my FI if I could keep my last name as my middle name and he was not happy. So it looks like I will have to take his last name. But I am gonna fight him on this one :) Guys dont understand that it is important to us because they dont have to change there name. I posted about this a little while ago and people told me to go and get this book, its about what the bride really feels. I went out and got and it made me alittle better about the whole thing. ( I thought that I was the only one who felt like this) The book is called 'The Conscious Bride' Hope this helps