I don't know if I am MAD... or PROUD... or INSULTED... or just plain SHOCKED! I think mostly I am amused that people can be so rude.
Let's go back a bit...Rob looks young. He isn't so much - he's 35. But he looks like he is in his 20's when he is dressed down. I am not looking my best these days. In fact - I am looking downright like H E L L. I finally came off the steroids and other meds in February - but I haven't been able to lose so much as even 5 lbs!!! The doctor said it would come right off once I stopped the meds... I think he may have lied. My face is puffy and distorted, my body is swollen and I am looking like the cousin to a beached whale. My self confidence has been totally shattered in the last 2 years. Getting married without looking the way I always hoped is a REAL test for me.
So the other day we were in Friendly's with the boys getting them ice cream as a treat for a job well done. I heard a girl say *sotto voce* - 'How does something like THAT get a guy like THAT?' I heard the other one say 'They aren't together - there is no way he would be with HER.'
I am not a paranoid person - and normally I wouldn't have thought they were talking about me, but my son said 'Mommy, why are those girls pointing at us?' I turned around and they kind of looked down, smiling and talking to each other.
So I looked at Rob to see if they heard them. And THIS is why I love him:
He said - LOUDLY - 'You can't think they are talking about YOU. You are beautiful. Besides.. don't they prove that you don't have to gain weight to be totally ugly?'
Then he kissed me. And I felt better.
But I STILL think I might be a little f*cking pissed off.
