1 Day Left ~ Having a BREAKDOWN!!! You've gotta be kidding me
Sorry this is long, I gotta get this out!!!!!!
Tomorrow is the day I have waited for for so long, I am marrying my dear FH who I love with all my heart.
I am seriously about to have a nervous breakdown. My future Step-daughter's dress doesn't fit ok, we picked it up from RK Bridal and the underarms are too tight...FH is on his way there with her right now to fix it but my wedding is tomorrow and i'm not sure how much they can really do immediately at the store.
For every major event in my life, it has been surrounded by sadness and bad luck. I feel like this whole wedding has been a jinx!!!!!!!!!!! My dear uncle passed away this past November, FH's Grandfather this past July.
One of my BM's had to back out last minute 2 weeks ago because her baby came late and now another BM (one of my closest cousin's) had a miscarriage last night. I can't believe it, I just feel so horrible for her. She is insisting on still being in the wedding but will not be in the limo, she'll get to the church on her own and I feel so bad for her. I don't even care if she's in my wedding at this point, so long as she's ok.
I got rear-ended last week by some jerk in Newark, NJ. It's a really nasty area so we exchanged insurance and left instead of waiting for hte cops. Now she's saying that 'she never hit me'....ok!
I have been sick since last week, back and forth to the Dr's and they were telling me it's Allergies. Finally yesterday I couldn't take it anymore but they couldn't take me in again until this morning. I was in the office on a Nebulizer and they told me I have all this mucous built up and put me on Steroids (Advair and Medrol) and say that it will make me 'JUMPY'. Oh and did I mention that from coughing so much, I burst a blood vessel in my eye and now I have a huge red BLOTCH on my eyeball...yes, very noticable. To top it all off, I burned at the tanning salon and have all dry skin peeling off.
My wedding day is tomorrow and I want to bury myself in bed and cry.
Tomorrow is the day I have waited for for so long, I am marrying my dear FH who I love with all my heart.
I am seriously about to have a nervous breakdown. My future Step-daughter's dress doesn't fit ok, we picked it up from RK Bridal and the underarms are too tight...FH is on his way there with her right now to fix it but my wedding is tomorrow and i'm not sure how much they can really do immediately at the store.
For every major event in my life, it has been surrounded by sadness and bad luck. I feel like this whole wedding has been a jinx!!!!!!!!!!! My dear uncle passed away this past November, FH's Grandfather this past July.
One of my BM's had to back out last minute 2 weeks ago because her baby came late and now another BM (one of my closest cousin's) had a miscarriage last night. I can't believe it, I just feel so horrible for her. She is insisting on still being in the wedding but will not be in the limo, she'll get to the church on her own and I feel so bad for her. I don't even care if she's in my wedding at this point, so long as she's ok.
I got rear-ended last week by some jerk in Newark, NJ. It's a really nasty area so we exchanged insurance and left instead of waiting for hte cops. Now she's saying that 'she never hit me'....ok!
I have been sick since last week, back and forth to the Dr's and they were telling me it's Allergies. Finally yesterday I couldn't take it anymore but they couldn't take me in again until this morning. I was in the office on a Nebulizer and they told me I have all this mucous built up and put me on Steroids (Advair and Medrol) and say that it will make me 'JUMPY'. Oh and did I mention that from coughing so much, I burst a blood vessel in my eye and now I have a huge red BLOTCH on my eyeball...yes, very noticable. To top it all off, I burned at the tanning salon and have all dry skin peeling off.
My wedding day is tomorrow and I want to bury myself in bed and cry.
